My Story

It's been a while...

2011-10-07T02:14:00.005+08:00

I have finished reading the book "The Pact" by Jodi Picoult. I think this is the closest Emily could be with Chris.

The story goes like this...put in a context that you'll understand easier...no reference to any person in particular...

Usui stumbles out of the building, all bloodied. He walks a few steps then slumps to the floor. "I'm sorry, my love." he whispered. " I can't keep our promise." He began reminiscing about the days they spend together. How he would tease her, how she would get mad at him. And those times when they fought and argued. They all seems like good memories now. Especially the day when she said "Yes."

Out of the corner of his eye, he saw Misaki. She ran to him, tears in her eyes. She knelt beside him and held his hand. "I'm sorry." he said. "You have nothing to be sorry about." she replied. "Thank you for this pass few months. I was very happy," he said. A smile crept to his face and his hand went limp.

and this is for you "Misaki".

Mom

2011-01-12T21:41:00.002+08:00

I just realized that what my mom does and what she says have a significant effect on my mood....

Mostly my mood becomes worse...

.....

2010-12-05T04:14:00.001+08:00

Yup....it's not gonna work out well...

It's just a feeling that I get...I'm not gonna pass...

Sorry Mandy for making you help me with all the stuff and not passing it...

Argh

2010-11-25T23:33:00.001+08:00

I know I have the ability to hold up half of the sky, but that doesn't mean you can throw everything to me. It's tiring.

*sigh* I'm tired.

Youtube??

2010-11-08T18:15:00.003+08:00

Version 1

Extended Version i guess....

The English translation is a bit off but i guess the whole story is still there...

Update

2010-11-02T19:38:00.000+08:00

I guess my blog needs an update. So here you are.

Update.

Actually, I'm just bored...

天堂与地狱——曾志伟

2010-10-08T23:50:00.004+08:00

记得我小时候，我们家左邻右里都很喜欢把门打开，有时候你来借盐，有时候你来借油，甚至有时候孩子回来晚了，就带到邻居那里去，你开饭没有？我们过来吃行不行？左邻右里大家都很融洽。但是到现在我们看到……别说是没有这种环境，甚至左邻右里叫甚麽名字大家也可能不太清楚，家家户户都重门心镇，每个都市人都很自我中心，有困难宁愿自己去解决，从来不和朋友分享，每个问题慢慢钻牛角尖，越钻越深…其实不需要，我觉得人需要朋友，可以把每件事拿出来和朋友分享，我常说：一人计短，二人计长，其实有些问题只要跟人家说一说，一句话就解答了你的困难。

有个人做了个梦，他梦见一个天使，就问那个天使，到底这个世界是不是有天堂和地狱？天使说，我马上带你去，你看这里有两层楼，我先带你参观底层，没进去他就已经听到，到处都是唉声叹气的声音，他觉得很奇怪，怎麽大家都唉声叹气的？一看，原来每个人面前都有一些食物，有些人有鲍鱼丶鱼翅，有些人有面包，有些人有白粥丶腐乳，有些人有肠粉丶点心，但是每个人因为被巫师施了咒语，手臂不能弯曲，只可以伸直，所以他们就不能把食物放进嘴里，个个都唉声叹气，不能把食物放进嘴里，搞得自己面黄肌瘦，看到好的食物不能吃，觉得这些人真惨。

天使说，你再看看上面，其实环境一样，就带他去楼上，没到楼上已听到里面嘻嘻哈哈，大家都很开心。一看，每个人面前同样有很多食物，也有鱼翅丶鲍鱼丶面包丶有粥丶腐乳，他们的手仍然不能弯曲，但是为甚麽他们这麽开心呢？原来每个人都鲍鱼，给你！我都不能吃。那个人说：我都吃不完，来！给你吃！——给他身边的人别！原来只要你给人家，人家也会给你，大家就吃得很开心了，每个人都开开心心，天使说：你现在明白天堂与地狱了！

很简单，其实人生就是——只要你肯和人分享，这个世界没有一件事能够不靠朋友，不靠任何人，就能自给自足的，这个社会就是你帮我，我帮你，互相帮忙，尤其重要的是，我们常说舍得舍得，舍出去自然会得回来，你帮了朋友，自然就有人帮你，就像食品一样，只顾自己吃，不舍得给人家，结果连自己都没得吃了。

看完这个故事就明白了，原来同一个环境，只要用不同的心态，就可以分得出天堂与地狱！

Decision

2010-09-30T20:22:00.001+08:00

I think I'm gonna make some decision which many won't like and none would support me. *sigh*

MId-Autumn Festival

2010-09-22T20:16:00.002+08:00

Wish you a happy and enjoyable Mooncake Festival.

Neighbourhood

2010-09-14T20:35:00.002+08:00

As some of you might know, something went wrong with my car. Somehow the remote control doesn't work and my car alarm will wail if I used the key to open the car. So I left my car there for a day(with the alarm offed of course).

So the next day, I drove my car for fixing. Well, as soon as I turn on the engine the car alarm started to wail. I drove the car to the car shop 4 or 5 streets away. With the alarm sounding. I pass through the guard house, pass through the entire neighbourhood and made a few rounds around the shop area because I wasn't sure of the exact location of the shop.

And guess what? Nobody stopped me. Nobody even pay attention to my wailing car. The people just look and that's it. I mean, my car alarm is yelling so loud and nobody even care to check out what's wrong. The guards at the guard house just left me leave like that. =.=''

Yeah. But now my car is fixed already. So...yeah.

RAWR!!!

2010-08-27T17:52:00.002+08:00

So that you know that I'm still here...

2010-08-17T16:05:00.005+08:00

I wish something like this would happen...

I just hope it wouldn't end like this...

So remember to treat your friends well just in case something like this happens...

Before, During, And After Lunch.

2010-08-08T14:30:00.003+08:00

She invited me to her church. As we were chatting on MSN, I was under the impression that I'll fetch her only. Mana tau I have to fetch her dad as well.

Stress Part 1.

So I think this is what Ken (Ivy's) felt when they(Ivy's family) were questioning him. Through the short drive from Damansara Jaya to the church somewhere near Eastin Hotel, I got questioned. =.=''

Stress Part 2.

We reached SIB, but don't know they sabotaged the elevator or it really broke down (I guess they sabotage it la since all rosak at the same time), we have to walk 5 storey up to the main hall. =.=''

Thank God for Ai Li Ng making me go exercise with her, if not I would have given up halfway.

Stress Part 3.

I only have RM5 left and the father told me to belanja lunch. =.=''

So imagine the conversation that follows la....the father is being mean to me....(can't really blame him la....she's his only child so would be more protective la...)

What's worse...even more questions... T_T. I think I failed the questioning test.

Sending The Wrong Message

2010-07-29T11:51:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I receive a message from Ai Li. She finally grant me a “date” with her. I was so excited throughout the night. I slept early so that I would be fresh and well rested when I meet her. But I woke up in the middle of the night due to my overly excited emotions. Seconds passed like minutes and minutes passed like hours. Finally it was close to the meeting time. I rushed to our appointed meeting place despite knowing I’ll be early. The wait was definitely worth it. I was finally able to lay my eyes upon her grace and beauty. Being a woman, she played hard to get. I had to run through mountains and valleys before I caught up to her. As a reward, she brought me to a secret alcove where we feast upon ambrosia. Ah…what delightful taste. Before I could make my next move, she said “That’s it for today. If you reach me faster next week, maybe we’ll have more time together.”

Ah….to wait for another week before I can see her grace and beauty again.

What actually happened.

Ai Li messaged me for jogging. I rested early but woke up in the middle of the night because I have fully recharged. I overestimated the jam so I arrived early. We walked up and down around the hill for 1 hour. Then we went to eat ‘pan mee’. The food was so so only. Before we go home, she told me “we’ll jog again next week.”

Sweat….have to go through hell again next week. Although the company is good.

What Would Happen If We Were Together

2010-07-19T02:36:00.002+08:00

I have no idea why I suddenly wanted to write this but the whole idea just came to me when I woke up from my sleep after 30 mins falling asleep...

Ivy

She would work hard for "us" and would work harder to make me become a better person. I would probably get some work done and eventually achieve what I am capable of achieving. But in the end she would leave and I would allow her to leave as I would have understood that there are others who need her more than I do.

Mandy

Unfortunately the only picture that I can see is that she will work hard to earn money and be crying at home. I'll most likely be the kind of alcoholic husband who gets money from the wife and then leave her alone at home while I go out goofing. She might argue with me once in a while but if I'm in a good mood, I'll ignore her. But if I'm in a bad mood, I'll beat her up and then go out seeking pleasure.

Ai Li

This one is a bit tricky. I think I'll work hard to let her enjoy an extravagant type of lifestyle. Most of my focus would be on my work. I'll only be able to give her the money that I earned but not the love that she deserves. Or rather I would not be able to love her and can only give her the money in compensation. In the end we would end up getting divorce with me paying a huge amount of alimony.

Note: The above is only a thought that occurred in a fleeting moment. None of it might be apply to the future nor is applicable to the present.

BBQ

2010-07-04T12:48:00.001+08:00

It has been a long time since we had BBQ together. Thank you all for coming.

To Be A Better Man

2010-05-19T23:55:00.002+08:00

When school begins, your time is probably splitted into three parts - 8 hours of sleep, 8 hours of school and 8 hours of free time. Of course this is just an assumption. The actual may vary from people to people. And so our journey begins.

At the start, homework wasn't that hard and not too much. A couple hours each day and you complete the homework and the studying. But for certain reason unknown to you, your parents decide to send you for tuition. 2 hours of free time gone just like that. That leaves you with 4 hours of free time. Still enough to enjoy. With this balancing of time you manage to score an A.

As time pass, homework becomes harder to do and the quantity increases steadily. A couple hours each day is no longer enough to cover everything and to maintain the A result. So you increase the time spent on homework and studying to 3 hours. And for certain reason which probably start with a K and ends with a U, your parents decide to send you for more tuition. 3 hours for tuition. so that leaves you with 2 hours of free time. Barely enough to enjoy. But when you factor in the time needed to complete tuition work, you find yourself almost running out of time. Despite the fact, you rolled up your sleeve and keep on working hard to get that A.

Finally a big break. SPM is over and you proceed to pre-U life. You no longer find yourself needing to spend 8 hours for school and no more tuition. But the one thing that didn't change is the expectation of people for you to get an A. Due to less hours spent in a teacher student setting, you spent extra time to work hard on your own to improve yourself. And you have more time to hang out with friends, find a romantic partner, learn how to hold hands (Ivy, this part is for you). A fleeting moment of enjoyment.

Before you realize it, you have reached the undergraduate stage. So how the 8 hours of college is back. So you're back to 8 hours of official stuff, 8 hours of sleep and 8 hours of free time. And you were thinking that I'll do a 2 hour study + doing assignment every day. Despite the long hours of college, you find yourself needing to a lot of self studying as a lot is not covered in class which you only found out when you got your first B. Shocked by the result and the different tone of voice other speak to you, you decided to spend more time to get back the A. So 2 hours become 3 hours. Slowly 3 hours become 4. Just to maintain that A and to not get the disapproving look from others, you slowly find yourself running out of free time. But thankfully the three years pass by in a flash and you graduated with a first class honors. Yay for you.

A major transition into the working life. At first you don't really have much to do. Not much to bring home to do as most can be complete while you're still at work. You work hard to climb the corporate ladder just like what everyone else expected. But as you rise, the workload increases. You can still handle it. Somewhere along the lines, you found your partner in life. A blissful wedding and now you have a family.

Time passes and you climb up the ladder. A few kids at home and a loving wife. A new direction. For the family. At this point you realized that your free time is either consumed by work that needs to be completed at home or by the family. You no longer have much time for yourself. Workload increases and you find yourself spending less time with the family. Slowly but surely the time spent on work increases. Until it fully consumes your free time. Deciding that you need to spend more time with your family, you gave up some of your sleep time.

Reduced sleep resulted in a decrease in performance. Your job is really killing your personal life. You wanted to quit, change a job, find something that pays as well as the current job but demands less of your time. Only to find out that other jobs can hardly cover the expenses. You realize that there are kids to feed, loans to return and bills to pay. Having no other choice, you continue on with your work.

Until one day your partner told you that he/she had enough. S/He told you that everytime you come back you don't spend time with the family and all you do is work work and work. You told her that it is to put food on the table but she will not listen. You got a divorce and without the kids. Now you come back to a house without a caring hug from your partner, without the cheerful sounds of the kids and without warm food on the table. Welcome to the mid-life crisis.

So, what's next?

Note: This progression is just one of the many that may occur. Do take note of such a progression when you are planning for the future to avoid unwanted/undesired events.

Disclaimer: This story is purely fictitious. Any resemblance to real persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental.

A Story and A Lesson

2010-05-19T00:45:00.003+08:00

Once upon a time, there was a young boy. He lived with his elder brothers as his guide and wholeheartedly believe in them. He believed that when he grow up he would be just like them. Successful, charming, athletic and all the other positive qualities that one can obtain. This went on till one fateful day.

The boy was invited to a wedding. He was sitted between the two brothers that he looked up to. And so for the first time being at a wedding, the boy was very excited. He was enjoying the whole process and the food a lot. Suddenly the light dimmed and a spot light shined on two person. The bride and the groom. They walked elegantly towards the main table and all eyes were on them.

At that moment, the two elder brothers decided to play a prank on the boy. They took a piece of dried chili from a dish and put it in the boy's plate. They told the boy it was "chicken skin" and it tasted nice. The boy trusting them so much did not even hesitate and put the dried chili into his mouth. The next thing the boy felt was a burning hot sensation in his mouth. And the two brothers were laughing there.

Ever since that experience, the boy no longer trusted the brothers. The event has scarred the boy so much that he no longer trust people and closed his heart from others. All others could see is the front that the boy think they want to see. Little did they know that the boy was crying on the inside.

Betrayed by the ones he trusted the most, an event that has changed the boy forever. A lesson painfully learnt.

Friends Gathering Again + Sing K

2010-05-13T22:18:00.007+08:00

The long awaited gathering has come and gone. Sorry Ai Li for disappointing you that we didn't plan a surprise be-earlied birthday for you. It was fun to be able to sit with the Kawans and chit chat about all the topics.

Sing K was fun. Sorry for shutting down in the process. I messed up my timing again. Sorry if I made you worried. But I don't think I'll have much chances to mess up my time for something fun again. Special thanks to BW for being a member of Neway.

Also special thanks to BW for acting in our film. We would have such good marks if it wasn't for you. And not to forget the one who is giving Ivy "opportunities". Without his editing our film would look so nice. Last but not least, Ai Li, Mike, Ivy, Priscilla and Bee Li for putting in so much effort for the film. Somehow this feels like a speech for when our film won some award. And I think we did...if I'm not mistaken we got the highest right??

Update

2010-05-07T20:42:00.023+08:00

I had a crazy spree for 2 days. Even had a spree of being awake for 24 hours straight. My system is not meant to function like that so now i'm kinda in a bad shape.

It all began with a late sleep on Wednesday, 2.00am. Woke up at about 10+. Eat breakfast...wait...don't remember got breakfast or not. Watched drama for few hours. Yes, I get hooked easily if there is access to drama. Then DotA for 6 hours. Then yum cha with my cousin and his friends (his birthday). A bit over midnight continue DotA till 4.30 am. Went home and mom told me I need to fetch another cousin in Kepong to HELP. Knowing that I won't be able to wake up if I slept, I played thru till 7.30am. Me and the birthday cousin went for breakfast before fetching the A-Level cousin. She drove us to college. (She recently get her driver's license). Drove back home from HELP. My system was desperately need to shut down. If you watched Mr. Bean's Holiday then you will be able to see what I did to keep myself awake except the putting finger into the heated metal and using the toothpick part. It was scary driving in that condition but made it back home in one piece.

Few hours of sleep. Awaken around dinner time. Had dinner at Ichiban Boshi in Sunway Giza. I recommend you not to go there. Personally I feel that the food there is not worth the money paid. The food is not well prepared and the taste is kinda lacking.

My mind is kinda still drifting a bit. So that's it for now.

P.S. I'm waiting for a sing K session.

Company

2010-04-26T20:11:00.001+08:00

I know the kind of company I need is not those that talk to me a lot but rather those who would sit by me in silent.

Update

2010-04-11T23:17:00.004+08:00

The guy who chased after her for a very long time is getting married today

A friend told her that the guy who chased after her a very long time is getting married...

I said "What do you want? I've been chasing after you for 5 years yet you show no response."

She said she went to the wedding ceremony. The bride was beautiful and the groom was handsome. It was like for the first time she felt that he was actually quite attractive and why she never felt that before. She said actually she felt that she never fell in love with him but as they exchanged their wedding rings, she felt a stab in her heart.

She said the saddest thing is not that the person you love no longer love you but rather is the person that has been loving you all these years has left. And when you saw the person who said will love you forever and would wait for you forever is putting on the wedding ring on another girl's ring finger, you can hear the sound of your heart shattering. Today's main character is not you. Whether she is Cinderella or not, today's princess will not you.

He is a pilot. When he was enclosed in the training grounds, just to call her, he had to walk a long long way to use the public telephone. It was a snowing winter and very cold, yet she responded in a irritated manner "Why did you call me out of the blue?" She didn't know he was on the verge of freezing on the other side of the phone. All he wanted was to hear her voice.

When she think back on those times, her face would still have the smile of happiness. But when she came back to reality and looked at the married couple, the groom is still him. But all his sweet talks is no longer meant for her.

How many people promised to love the other for life and lived up to those words? When one have worked hard for years yet it is bearing no fruit, who would still wait upon you? I finally understand we can bravely face the fact that the person you love no longer love you. But no matter who also can stand the fact that someone who loved you for so long turned and left. That pride, that happiness, gone.

Please treasure those who are silently loving you. Take extra measures to care and grasp on to every part of true love. Do not turn a blind eye to those who gave you their love. Do not wait until you realized that it is lost only then regret. Maybe one day when he really left, you will realize that the person who cannot let go is you not him.

Thanks for watching.

Genius

2010-03-19T20:09:00.002+08:00

For those who have never been to the top, they always wanted to reach the top.

For those who have been to the top, they all know how lonely it is to be at the top. That's why they never brag about being at the top.

A genius don't really understand that the common people cannot do what they can do. He have overly high expectations of others but he doesn't know it because he thought everyone else can do it. People claim that they don't have a good grasp on communication, but did they ever try to think that they are blinded by their own jealousy and unconsciously rejects them or even scheme against them?

A little more acceptance goes a long way.

Hmm

2010-03-14T14:40:00.001+08:00

It feels good to be able to say "Let me handle it. You don't overwork yourself." and also "This is what friends are for."

It's A Story

2010-02-26T19:36:00.003+08:00

Read the following as the music plays.

0.00 -0.10 He came to this world. She came to this world.

0.11-0.18 They grew up together.

0.19-0.25 He always talk about studying overseas.

0.26-0.32 She don't want to part with him but still supported his idea of studying overseas.

0.33-0.43 He bought a ticket and depart by boat. The ship sails into the distance.

0.44-0.51 He completed his studies earning his degree.

0.51-0.59 He said goodbye to his friends, bought his ticket and headed home in a boat.

1.00-1.08 The boat he was in is caught in a storm. He was swept into the sea. He sank into the darkness.

1.09-1.16 He hugged her. And he vanished in her arms.

1.17-1.24 She woke up from her sleep and knows that he's gone forever. She cried.

1.28 Her teardrop hits the ground.

愚公移山

2010-02-12T21:27:00.002+08:00

愚公移山 (yu2 gong1 yi2 shan1) litterally means stupid person moving a mountain.

The story goes by where this person Mr. Yu like on one side of the mountain. Everyday he goes to work on the other side of the mountain. One day, he got fed up of having to walk so far every morning. So he gathered his children and began digging at the mountain wanting to move it away. He continues for a very long time but the mountain doesn't seem to even become smaller. But he never gave up. Another person pass by and ask Mr. Yu why is he digging at the mountain. As Mr. Yu replied, the man laugh out loud. He told Mr. Yu that instead moving the mountain he should shift his house to the other side of the mountain. And he went away laughing. Mr. Yu said even if I don't succeed at moving the mountain, my sons and their sons will continue my work till one day the mountain is moved away. The heavens was so touched by his determination that two deities were sent down to move the mountain away.

Moral of the story: what ever they use to tell you like don't do such stupid stuff and what not. And there is no such thing as deity helping you.

But the true moral behind it is that other people are never supportive. They laugh at you for doing something out of the ordinary, keep wanting you to stick to norm. And this is how dreams die.

Don't be afraid of what other people say as long as you believe that the path you are taking is right for you. Only you know what is truly good for you and never get dissuaded by other people.

It's Alright

2010-02-10T00:02:00.002+08:00

As I was leaving her house, I felt a very strong sense of sadness in me. I don't know why. Maybe it's because I have reached my limit of keeping things in, maybe something else I don't know of. As I drive on, this feeling of sadness slowly transformed into some sort of anger, hatred feel. I repeatedly think "It's alright, calm down." but the feeling is slowly building up. Up to a point where I feel like smashing things. And at a traffic light, a car try to cut in front of me. First reaction, block that car out. Then I told myself "calm down, let him pass. It's alrgiht."

But still the feeling is getting worse and worse. I realized that I was gripping the steering wheel extremely hard. I thought that one day when I can no longer control it, I might hurt someone. But then again, I feel like I would hurt myself first before I would hurt other people. For so long, I have been hurting myself in a way to de-stress. Maybe you all notice it, maybe not.

When I reached home, I really felt like not smiling. But still, I put on a smiling face. I guess I still can show them the "me" that I feel like I am. It doesn't feel good to be wearing a mask in front of my family. But what can I do? They tell me they know what I want but they can't give it to me. I wonder, what do I really want?

The counselor say that it is a learnt behavior and can be unlearned. But I feel that it is a characteristic that I have for a very long time and I don't think it can be changed. For now, while I am still in control, I hope that I will find enough people whom I can trust to stop me when I lose control.

"It's alright. As long as I'm wearing this mask, it's alright."

Yet Another Weekly Update

2010-02-01T22:42:00.002+08:00

Monday - What did I do last Monday? I only remembered that I honked someone on the road and watched Jerry Maguire.

Tuesday - Found a group for my PSY203. Watch many short clips of the growth of a fetus till birth in PSY203.

Wednesday - Have lotsa fun in Public Speaking. We had to draw our face using our non-dominant hand. Then the lecturer randomized the paper and give us a random piece. We had to find the person based on the drawing and ask them their name, nickname, likes and dislikes. Well, since I'm one of the two males in class and the only male wearing glasses, it doesn't take a genius to identify my drawing. After that, we were to tell the class the name, nickname, likes and dislikes of the person we got.

Thursday - Mass class skipping by group 4 in PSY212. Our group started with 8 people. Boon Woei came in late. Halfway through the playing game, 4 people disappeared. And at our first break, led by Betsy (I hope you forgive me), we all left class. Reasons given were -- class got no meaning, want to watch movie, car is parked at Ai Li's place so have to follow someone, and others.

Friday - Meeting about our Film. At first we were lost, very lost. But after some ideas here and there, we have a more concrete story line now. Still much to work on but at least we're getting somewhere.

Saturday - Why is my Saturdays always blank??

Sunday - Went out to DotA. Expecting mom to be home quite late so I decided to go for a gaming session. However by the time I returned, everyone was already back at home. Mom asked me where I went. So I told her. She said she came back at 6++pm, which is right after I left home. @.@ Oh well, at least I had a fun time playing DotA. 3 wins and 1 defeat. ^.^

Fortune Telling

2010-01-28T20:32:00.002+08:00

This kind of person should not go for fortune telling. The kind of person where if the fortune teller says "You'll have good luck." and become overjoyed and claims that the fortune teller is very accurate at it. But if the prediction is bad, his face immediately turns black and defame the fortune teller, telling everyone else that the fortune teller is a quack. But in his heart, he fears that what the fortune teller says would come true, causing him to eat and sleep bad. This cause the person to go from being OK to really going through a bad time all because of the way he thinks.

If fortune telling is accurate, one probability is that you have such a life therefore the fortune teller predicts it like that; another probability is that because the fortune teller predicts it that way, therefore you have such a life.

So what good is fortune telling?

Late Post

2010-01-25T21:37:00.002+08:00

I forgot to post my highlight of last week. So here you are.

Monday - Was finding parking space in Main Block. Saw two girls moving around 2 cars seemingly lost. Then one of the came to my car and ask me whether I had a jump start cable. Fortunately, I just added that item into my car a few days ago. So there I was helping those 2 girls to get the car started. They parked their car side by side so all I had to do was connect the cable. As we were waiting, they told me they were Psychology 1st year students. Juniors. As we were chit chatting, other cars somehow managed to get stuck with my car blocking. Note - I double parked so as to help them. Seeing the fastest way to solve the jam problem, I moved my car away to double park behind the girls' car. My first ever double parking before going to class in my entire career in HELP. And guess what? I decided to take the 4-6pm class which means I have to rush back to move my car from Main Block and rush to Wisma HELP for class (the girls' class ends at 4pm).

Tuesday - Ju Li's class took longer than an hour. In fact, it took 2 hours and 30 minutes to finish. New Record.

Wednesday - Educational Psych class. Though our lecturer's name has a Phun(Fun) there, the class is no fun. :(

Thursday - No highlights.

Friday - Piano class. Progress progress progress.

Saturday - Er.....mind kinda blank....memory loss I guess

Sunday - Breakfast with relatives. Had Bery Good Teh. Cousin came over. Went dota-ing. Hence the forgetting to update. 5 loss and 1 win. Not bad already, still managed a win.

Highlights Of The Week

2010-01-18T00:08:00.002+08:00

Monday - Class starts at 1pm. Film class. Watched 'Cinema Paradiso", an Italian movie with English subs. Dr. Goh seems to have skipped a part where the main dude is doing some s*x with someone (we saw glimpse of the scene with very suggesting subtitles). Yum cha with friends.

Tuesday - My 203 class. The lecturer was Siew Ju Li. And guess what? The class starts at 3pm but ended at 4pm. Typical of her. And it was drizzling when class ended. Short walk to Block A, managed to not get very wet. When the bus arrived at Main Block. The rain has stopped. But as soon as I was in my car, which is in the far far end of the parking area, the rain resumed. Thank God for it. And then a dreadful jam. Part of the road leading back to my house was flooded. 4 lanes become 1/2 lane. Stuck there for 1 hour. >.>

Wednesday - Plans to watch movie. Plan only. Spent whole day at home planning.

Thursday - Piano class. Finally completed the whole song of "Eyes on me" by Faye Wong. Still haven't mastered it yet but can play everything already. ^.^

Friday - Watched Sherlock Holmes with my cousin. Good movie. Initially thought that the guy who acted as Watson was Holmes. =.=''

Saturday - An annoying event has happened. I was driving home from Kepong. So my car was like halfway on both lanes but unable to move forward cos red light and the car in front of me didn't give me enough space to go forward. I was stuck there so I waited patiently. Then there's this red Kancil lined up behind my car. "Honk" I looked at the rear view mirror and noticed the Kancil. "Honk Honk" "Flash Flash" and some more "Honk" and "Flash". I was thinking is something wrong with that dude? I'm not moving forward obviously because I can't and I'm not driving a Kancil that can fit into ridiculously small spaces. And finally the green light came. I moved forward and so did the Kancil. But the "Honk" and "Flash" didn't stop. As we were turning, I felt a tremendous urge of slamming the brake. And then nothing happened. We turned and moved on the straight 2 lane road. And still "Honk Honk" and "Flash Flash". Finally he decided to overtake me. As he overtook my car, I saw his "you noob a, dunno drive car a?" face. Then he signalled for a left turn. At that moment, I felt another tremendous urge to slam on the accelerator and knock him to oblivion. But I didn't do it. But I was super duper annoyed. RAWR!!!!

Sunday - Breakfast somewhere in Kepong. Ate some nice One Ton Mee. I feel like I can recommend that stall.

Those are the highlights for this week. ^.^

@)!) <--- 2010 with shift button

2010-01-10T19:53:00.002+08:00

A brand new year. LOL. I am currently lost for word. So much to say but don't know where to start.

So much I feel like I can achieve, but none I wanted to do.

So many new year resolution, but none are enjoyable.

My "cheese" is running out but I have yet to find "New Cheese".

I don't know what to write so this is it.

So Far So Good

2009-12-19T14:46:00.000+08:00

So far I am enjoying my holiday. Hope that you all are enjoying too.

Too Many Titles Here

2009-12-07T12:49:00.002+08:00

First of all, I want to thank all my awesome friends for the awesome steamboat dinner. Had a really awesome night and also for the bubble tea.

Next up is the announcement that I have returned from Australia. I had a very enjoyable time there. Following is a summary of my journey there.

Before departing, 9.30pm flight. Family ate KFC for dinner. Board aeroplane. 7hours flight I watched 7hours of movie. That was the second time I did not sleep for more than 24hours.

Day 1 - Arrived at 8.00 am. The weather was nice. Somewhere between 13-20c. Went to apartment on Room 281, 183 City Road. Apartment with 3 rooms and 2 toilets. And there was 8 of us. Settled down and we went to eat brunch. My brother brought us to eat siew lap rice(figure it out yourself). I had a roasted pork + rice. The portion of rice there is like double of what you normally get here. So I was super enjoying it. After that shopping. Something happened in between which left me walking for a long long long long long long time and didn't even reach a shopping place. I walked more than what I walk in November in just one day. Leg pain.

Day 2 - Had a very nice guai lou style breakfast. Once again I have to mention the portion of the food. It's at least double of what you can get in M'sia. Walked around, took pictures, then Very smartly gave my mother a spare shirt of mine. So I didn't need to go for shopping. Spent most of the day playing Wii. Got like 6 new shirts. Dinner at Crown. I had a bentoh which is super duper nice. And then we took a walk. Watch some 8 pillars spewing fire show. Kinda nice. Walked a bit more, watch a christmas presentation, then went back to apartment. Played Wii boxing and bowling. Leg still hurting.

Day 3 - Went to Phillip Island. Long journey. Ate at Rusty Waters. Watched some wildlife, and watched some 30cm tall penguins going home from the sea. Some sea bird preying there. Those little penguins are really cute. Also watched the moon rise. Yes. Not sunset nor sunrise. But watching the moon rise up. It was so cool.

Day 4 - Went to St. Kilda Beach. Ate at a Mart Shop at one of the traM stop. Walked along the beach. Saw people sunbathing. Some of them are like 42 inch TV(you'll understand it if you understand it, if not too bad la). Took pictures. Ate instant noodles in the apartment. Whole family played Wii bowling together. Some how my father tapau us all.

Day 5 - My brother's graduation ceremony. Went to Melbourne Uni. Took pictures here and there. And the ceremony begins. Good thing there isn't enough ticket for me to go in. Super boring inside. Me along with my second brother and his wife went to Lygon Street for gelato. Ice-creams. What more can one ask for. Dinner at the first siew lap shop and then it's off to the airport. 1.10 am flight.

All in all, I had a great time there. Even though it's summer the weather is still quite cool.

No News

2009-11-24T21:31:00.001+08:00

As the saying goes - no news is good news.

Mixed Message

2009-11-14T17:28:00.002+08:00

First of all, I want to thank all of you who came to my house and celebrated my birthday with me. Thank you so much!!! Next I want to apologize for taking up your precious time for my birthday. I sorry that you all had to spend so much time with me during a very very assignment deadline meeting week.

And here's more apologies. This goes to all my group mates whether it is group A, B or C. I'm sorry for my behavior last week.

Random Quotes

F.E.A.R. - False Evidence Appearing Real - Unknown Author

The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen, nor touched...but are felt in the heart. - Helen Keller

Forgiveness is a GIFT you give yourself. If you cannot love yourself, you will try to fill the void of your own lack of self-love with the love of others. You will tend to demand from others what you cannot give yourself - Gay & Kathlyn Hendricks, PH.D. (Conscious Loving)

When we hate someone, we are hating some part of ourselves that we see in that person. We don't get worked up about anything that is not in ourselves. - Herman Hesse

Becoming free is not changing yourself into someone you think you should be. Becoming free is falling in love with who you are--right now. - Unknown Author

Something Random

2009-11-08T22:08:00.002+08:00

The past few days was horrible.....very horrible. I slept on average 12 hours per day. I totally ignored everything I need to do. All I did was eat, sleep and play PS3. It was horrible. I feel like my strength has been drained from me all the while. I was moody, tired and don't felt like moving out of the TV room.

Progress Report

Wait....what progress?? You mean there was supposed to be some progress?? Er...

Random Quotes

To receive joyfully is a blessing. When you accept something with love and joy, you are telling yourself "I am worth it, I deserve them". This is self-love of the highest level. (Forgot book title already)

When love comes to you, don't refuse it by thinking you are not worthy. You are worthy, or love won't come your way. - JOHN-ROGER

Some people grumble because roses have thorns,

I am thankful that the thorns have roses.

- Alphonse Karr

The Leaf Flips Over To The Other Side

2009-11-02T17:10:00.002+08:00

I have reach a point where in order for me to progress I have to put it some effort. I guess I have to let those whatever goes kind of days to be over and start having a schedule which incorporates effort in it.

So this is a rough idea. I shall put in effort from Monday to Friday. Take holidays on Saturday and Sunday. Shall not work more than 2-3 hours per day (not inclusive of classes and piano lessons). At least do some exercise (not inclusive of walking to McDonald's mainblock or from Block A bus stop to Block E).

Well...I know it's kinda little but for someone like me it's already a lot. Need discipline. And there is like 1 month left till exams. Yup. So if everything goes well I shall pass all the subjects with not very flying colours.

P.S. Mandy and Ivy....sorry but there is little to none in this blogpost which is related to you.

Halloween

2009-10-30T15:10:00.002+08:00

I saw Snow White eating a Poison Apple and then turned into Ju-on.

Don't understand? Here's some explanation.

I(Chun Feng) saw Snow White(Ivy in white dress and white shoes with white teddy bear) eating a Poison Apple(food sold during Halloween) and then turned into Ju-on(poison takes effect, Ivy lets her hair cover her face and still in white dress and white shoes with white teddy bear).

Yup. She definitely is sucessful at scaring people.

The Halloween thingy was okay okay la. Only that the wait is too long. 2 hours eh. But hor....Ivy was eating the apple for 2 hours also. Eat till have to tapau also haven't bitten the apple yet. XD

And there was Darth Vader who got his light saber stolen by Itachi.

Explanation: Wei Wen dressed up in normal outfit with Darth Vader mask, walking around and some other guy in Itachi's outfit(that's a character from the manga Naruto) holding a light saber.

Yup. So the story is Itachi defeated Darth Vader in a fight and stole the light saber as a trophy.

Dr. Anasuya. First look.....Hagrid outfit. Look again.....got light saber. Look closer.....I realize that she was dressed up as a Jedi. =.=''

I also saw a priest with two really hot chick. The two chick skirt like barely covering everything. And the priest is holding a bag with another hot chick on the side(photo). I wonder.....

I Is Happy

2009-10-28T19:32:00.003+08:00

Happy. Happy. Happy.

I'm currently in a positive mood.

Reason

-Road condition have improved significantly, definitely correlated to school and holidays.

-I/O presentation was quite a success. I don't think we get banged very hard. He liked our ideas and design layout. But Jocelyn looked quite bored.

-I got addicted to a simple game called Plant vs Zombies. I blame my group leader, Wei Wen, for it. While we were discussing he was clicking away at the game. And now he got the whole group infected. So it's all your fault, Boss.

Then again.....there's no reason to be not happy.

I guess this is the "calm before the storm". Serious counselling session this Friday. It will either make me or break me.

Just A Quote

2009-10-19T22:07:00.001+08:00

A real friend is one who walks in when everyone else walks out.

An Angel's Wish

2009-10-16T17:45:00.001+08:00

I wish I could be an angel

to shower love and protection to all the children in the world

to stop war and bring peace

to shine light when there is darkness

to guide those who are lost

to give strength to those who are weak

to console those who despair

to guide those who are suffering to forgive themselves lovingly

to be a mirror of your true self

Once Again

2009-10-14T22:03:00.001+08:00

I'm in that place once again.

Something nice I felt like sharing.

New Tricks And Old Trick

2009-10-12T23:25:00.003+08:00

I learnt TWO new tricks today and it came in handy. The tricks were to count the distance from one shoulder to another shoulder and how does an airplane fly. It both reach the same ending, your hand reaching around the girl and landing on her further shoulder. Neat trick huh? Thanks Priscilla.

It's Mandy's 21st birthday. We threw her a surprise birthday party. Even though many of them are exhausted after an early I/O class and a late Human Mo exam, they still turned up ignoring Mandy's thick face post. We had an enjoyable time during dinner. There was the leprechaun combo(Edmund+Mandy), the Christmas Combo(me+Mandy+Edmund+Micheal), and other combo's which are *ehem*.

After the dinner, I was charged with sending Mandy home. As we were leaving the restaurant, I remember something my brother told me a long time ago. "When you send a girl home, always try to take the longer route". And that's precisely what I did. I took the longer route. Ngiak Ah Ah(evil cunning laughter).

Random Quote

无风不起浪，事出必有因。

I/O

2009-10-10T21:24:00.002+08:00

I officially hate I/O right now. It is eating up too much of my time and energy. The worst part is, it is affecting my sleep pattern. I am not resting well for the past week and have to take nap almost everyday. Even after taking a nap, I would wake up feeling tired because I am not resting in my sleep.

Rephrase a bit. I hate group assignment. Especially those that involves me being in a group of people that I still don't feel comfortable with. I felt like a lot of time is wasted for one stupid assignment. Meeting here meeting there. And I felt very mentally detached from meetings. I'm physically there but my mind is not.

I just don't think I can do it for long. Still have to tahan 3 weeks. Haihz.

On a side note. My stove is gone. My mom replaced the old one before the wedding. But after a few days of usage, the stove was in a very bad shape. My dad sent the stove back and lodged a complain. I have no idea how long it will take for it to come back but I'll have to say bye bye to supper for now. (And I even bought 3 pack of instant noodles from Tesco on Friday. =.='')

Random Quote

Happiness when shared is doubled, grief when shared is halved.

A Sad Moment

2009-10-08T21:33:00.002+08:00

My family mourns the passing of a relative. As of today, my brother's father-in-law has passed away. I not 100% sure but it should be due to liver cancer. There's a gloomy aura in the house now.

I Wonder About The Path Not Taken

2009-10-08T01:48:00.004+08:00

So here I stand at a crossroad. One leads to the continuation of dreams. The other I'm not so sure. It may lead to the dark tunnel or maybe an exit from a tunnel. I'm not sure.

The road of dreams is within my control. Although there might be some nightmares, there is also a lot of beautiful dreams. But then, the road ends with a cliff. Conclusion, horrible ending.

The other road. Something out of my control. It's a do or die kinda thing. If I win, I win. If I lose, I lose. Sounds vague I know. To make it clearer. If I win, I get what I want. If I lose, I lose all hopes. Still vague maybe. But some will understand.

So here I am. Walking along the road of dreams. Someone showed me the other road. I paused and thought for a while. My body says I should keep walking along the road of dreams and fall off the cliff. My mind feels that I should take the other road, be it for better or worse. If worst comes to worst, I will end up in a dark tunnel or on top of a mountain. I don't wanna end up on either place. But falling off a cliff ain't that nice either i guess.

So, here I am. Wondering about which path to take and wondering about the path not taken.

Random Quote

人若不能欣赏悲剧的美，便无法在精神上站立起来。

Busy Busy Busy

2009-10-05T20:01:00.002+08:00

As the title says....I'm busy. Or at least was. There is just many stuff that I need to handle just like the rest of you. But, I'm just not feeling like doing it. Procrastinating. The few days before, during and after my brother's wedding I was busy. Now I have more free time. But got assignments need to handle. Haiseh. So not liking the assignments. Too much human interaction.

Random Quote

不成熟的爱 -- 我需要你，所以我爱你。

成熟的爱 -- 我爱你，所以我需要你。

Erm....I Don't Know About The Title

2009-09-25T09:22:00.003+08:00

We are only human. It's normal for us to make mistakes. Even if we don't learn from it after making it, it's just that we are a slow learner. Take your time. Eventually you'll be able to understand where the mistake is and how to overcome it.

I guess we would miss someone is because when they leave, they leave behind a void in our heart. We feel sad because of the emptiness. One can always look to God to fill the void, or expand the space taken by other people to fill the void. Just remember, they went to a better place and would not want to know that we are crying because they no longer need to suffer the mortal realm.

I guess it's not my place to say this since I am not doing my part that well either. But this is a part of life that we all have to go through. Work is something most of us don't enjoy(Exception to the A type person). But still after doing it for so many years I'm surprised that we haven't got desensitized over it yet. Good thing most of the stuff is group work. The burden is shared, the part one person have to handle is less. So remember to depend on group mates and not handle everything alone(This goes to A type person as well).

I guess there just too much negative energy flying around. Maybe it's me that is not observant/caring/worry, or whatever term should be that, enough. But I think all the problem will be solved in the end. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow. But eventually everyone will complete their part and you'll end up with a masterpiece. So chill, take things one at a time, and you'll find that it can be done in a shorter time than you thought.

Random Quote: Some people became millionaires just because they don't want other people to nag them about work and money. They work really hard for a few years just to avoid being nagged at for the rest of their life.

P.S. Mandy, your player the fish leong song got a guy singing there one. Who is that guy??

It's Back....Finally Back....

2009-09-15T17:44:00.002+08:00

My computer is finally back. After a long 5 days of not having a computer, I wonder how to survive nowadays without a computer. Without a computer I was like cut off from the world. Not knowing how to world is spinning without me there watching. And I realize I missed a lot of things. Like Mandy getting her Cbox back, Ivy having nightmares back to back, Sharon changed her blog layout, Ai Li's 'What "genre" is today'.

So now it's back. It was suppose to be back last Friday. Let's now dwell on the horrible past. Think about the bright future that we can create.

(^.^) V

The Long War

2009-09-02T19:57:00.003+08:00

When I first arrived, they were nothing more than mere peasants. They were curious about the intruders and that's all about it. As time pass, they realize that their lands are being taken away. This cause them to fight back to regain what was theirs. They planned their attacks well. Their constant night raids was a great annoyance to me. My advisors told me that the wizards can conjure up a strong wind which would hold them at bay. I of course agreed to the plan to get rid of them. Soon, my wizards began casting the spell. They were no match for the strong wind. Unable to hold their ground, they retreated. A short time of peace ensued.

Not long later, my scouts began noticing them trying to break through the wind. They failed and failed. I was glad that they were no longer able to annoy me. Until one day, a prototype was able to break through the wind successfully and retreated before being repelled. The next day, a number of them came breaking through the wind to continue their invasion. It seems that they have upgraded their engine and thrusters to a level which can safely break through my wind. My wizards responded by casting spikes from the surface to repel them. The spikes covered most of the surface. As they began their attack against the spikes, they find that their hull was unable to withstand the spikes and their short range weapon are unable to reach the surface. Unable to achieve victory, they retreated once again.

Peace was shortlived. I don't remember when they resumed their invasion but they were prepared for the spikes. Their hull was able to withstand a considerable amount of damage from the spikes and their weapon range has been upgraded to reach the surface. Seeing that the spikes has been breached, my wizards toughened the surface. They were not prepared for such a tough surface where their weapons barely make a dent. Unable to breach the final frontier, they pull back again in preparation for another siege.

Knowing how they manage to overcome my defences, I doubt that the tough surface would hold them back for long. Sure enough, they attacked again. This time taking less time than they used to. From their attacks, I can see that their weapons now have armor piercing abilities. They have breached my final line of defence. My wizards was forced to resort to hypnotic magic to draw their attention away. A pillar of purple light surrounded by a web of lightning was conjured. The pillar of light so far has been able to distract them. But for how long I wondered.

It has been 9 years since I arrived at this place. I have seen them evolve from mere weaklings to their current state. I think it is only a matter of time before the pillar of light fails me. I might have to resort to bringing the Ice Age to drive them away though I may have to suffer a lot. I would have to sacrifice the surface for it, but will it be worth it? I wonder....

If you have no idea what I'm talking about, it's about the war between I(Goh Chun Feng) and them(mosquito).

My defences

strong wind = fan

spikes = hair

tough surface = skin

pillar of light= the purple light thingy

Ice Age = air con

Their weapons

engine and thrusters = wings

hull = body

weapon = whatever they use to bite or whatever

armor piercing = armor piercing(use your imagination)

我能给的只是一个微笑。

2009-08-31T21:36:00.000+08:00

看着你脸上伤心的表情，我感到很无奈。我了解你内心的痛苦但却帮不上一点忙。我唯一可以给你的是一个微笑。希望我的微笑能让你的世界从见光明。让你那灿烂的笑容再一次挂在你脸上。我希望我的微笑减少你所感到的痛。让你不再终日以泪洗脸。我恨我的无能，不能把一切的痛苦赶走。我恨我的无助，不能再为你做出任何东西。更可恨的是我当时的行为，做出了不可挽回的错误。当初……太迟了。已经没有回头路可走了。多希望一切可以从来。但是，已经来不及了。

还记得当初我们第一次见面，我被你的笑容吸引着了。你的笑容让我真正有一个人生的目标。是你的微笑让我做出我这一生最大的努力。让我在短短的几年里打拼出了一片江山。让我站在我人生的最高点。而我也做出了我人生最好的决定。就在那一天，那一家餐馆，那一个时候，我在人群当众向你求婚。而你点了点头，那一杀那是我最开心的时候。我仿佛飞到九霄云外。我们俩拥抱在一起良久，周围的人都在为我们道喜，祝福我们。也记得餐馆的老板很大方的请了我们当天的晚餐。也记得餐馆外放着烟花，似乎在为我们庆祝。

为了你我继续努力打拼，把事业推上了另一个高峰。好消息不仅如此。当我从工作回来后，看见你脸上那藏不住的笑容。你抱着我说 :” 我怀孕了。” 我再一次飞到九霄云外。真没想到我将会成为一位爸爸了。我似乎觉得我就是世界最幸福的人。我们俩抱在一起，讨论我们孩子的名字。

可惜好景不长在。我们开开心心的回家途中，一辆车从不知道什么方向撞了过来。我俩受伤被送进医院。我还好，只受了轻伤，只需要留院观察几天。你却很不幸的受了更重的伤。我清醒时你还在手术室里进行手术。过了良久，医生终于完成了手术。医生对我说:” 大的是没什么大碍，可是小的就保不住了。”我的世界顿时崩溃了。我的孩子就这样没了。撞我的那个人死了就一了百了，我们活下来的就得活受罪。天阿，你是多么的不公平。当你清醒后，我把消息告诉了你。从那天起，我在也没看见你那灿烂的笑容了。

自古祸不单行。我不仅失去了我的孩子，也在短短几个月内失去了我的事业。他们说什么金融风暴，金融危机。在几个月内，全世界的经济衰退。许多公司倒闭。我的公司也遭殃了。我差不多失去一切了。可是天不作美，偏偏要把我的一切拿走。也在这时候，检验报告显示你的了癌症。肿瘤长在许多重要器官一带，医生们都不敢开刀把肿瘤切除。而我也没有资金来为你付手术的费用。

我知道我为了你可以做出任何事情。我更知道我不能失去你。我能不惜一切为你，只要你安全健康。我更知道我不应该做出当初的决定。但是为了你，我把一切的禁忌抛开。在这世道低迷的时候，要在短时间内获得一笔可观的钱，除了行偏之外别无他路。我也不知道我为什么会答应他们加入他们一伙。他们说有本事从银行取出不少钱。钱，就因为钱，我跟着他们去。他们说他们已经做好准备，银行里应该没别人，只有自己人。当内应把门打开后，我们一窝蜂的进入银行。就在我们大式搜刮时，好死不死警铃突然响起来。我们往外冲，往车子跑。才发现车子不见了。而警察从四面八方涌出来。我拼命的跑，不停地跑。就当我以为安全了，可以休息了，我却发现我给警察包围了。我只好乖乖投降。

我意图大劫银行罪名成立，被判入狱。虽然你不时会来看我，我发觉你一次比一次消瘦。我知道你病情渐渐恶化但是我却不能为你做什么。直到一次你来看我时，我们一如往常的聊天。聊到一半，我看见你流鼻血。“老婆，你在流鼻血。”你伸手抹掉鼻血，向我望了一眼，然后身子往后倒。”来人阿，我老婆昏倒了。快送她去医院。”过了几天，警卫那了一封信给我。我看了信的内容。你已经永远离开我了。我只记得你对我说:”你给我最好的礼物就是你的笑容。”

我希望我的微笑减少你所感到的痛。让你不再终日以泪洗脸。我恨我的无能，不能把一切的痛苦赶走。我恨我的无助，不能再为你做出任何东西。更可恨的是我当时的行为，做出了不可挽回的错误。在最后，我只想说:” 我爱你。”

A Horrendous Breakfast

2009-08-22T16:06:00.005+08:00

It began with a piano class at 10.45 am. Class ended at 11.15am. My parents went to China at 6.30am. So no one at home, no food at home. And summore I'm outside already so eat outside. I decided to visit the DU Cafe Wan Tan Mee shop again for old times sake. This is the second time I went back to that stall. As I sat there looking at them prepare the mee, I was so "swt".

First of all, the mee did not go thru the hot-cold-hot process which makes the mee crunchy or something. Then hor, after taking the mee out of the boiling water, they barely mixed it and then they cut the mee. THEY CUT THE MEE. I was like OMGWTFBBQ there. If they cut the mee then how was I suppose to finish the mee in a vacuum cleaner fashion!!! So that ends the seeing the process part.

Then the guy who was delivering the mee sent the mee to the wrong table. I was like OMG. What a big blunder. Guess they just wasn't interested to remember how a customer dresses up or looked like. But nonetheless, the mee reached my table. And the tasting begins. Oh did I say they didn't mix the mee with the colouring+flavoring? The mee was like part yellow part black. And the taste was like part got more taste part no taste. And then the char siew. Man, if they can't make char siew they should have just bought from the Char Siew rice shop next to them la. Their char siew I also dunno whether it qualifies as char siew or not.

Before eating I was at +7 morale. After eating I went to -10 morale. An overwhelming sense of dissatisataction. That's it. Enough is enough. No more wan tan mee from that old lady who looks like her husband just died. Her face ar....really ar....like all her relatives die in the same day like that. Cannot see one la. Her mouth hor....like n like that one lor. Haihs....really sad case la. It used to be good. But now.......haihs....one can only think of the glorious past and weep for the unsightly present.

ARGH!!!! WTF!!!!!! SAY NO TO WAN TAN MEE FROM DU CAFE!!!!!!

A Chun Feng is Forever

2009-08-13T19:30:00.005+08:00

1. What do you say to yourself every morning?

You'll Look a Little Lovelier Each Day with Fabulous Pink Chun Feng.

2. What do you want other people to say about you?

Go To Work On A chun Feng

3. Someone asked you out, your answer is...

Happiness is a Cigar Called Chun Feng

4. -skip-

5. How would you introduce yourself to someone you really like?

If Only Everything in Life was as Reliable as a Chun Feng

6. To someone you dislike?

The Best Part of Waking Up is Chun Feng in Your Cup

7. You're in a conversation and you suddenly feel the need to pee, how would you excuse yourself?

Don't Get Mad, Get Chun Feng

8. Your parents ask you why you got home late, you say...

Only The CRumbliest Flakiest Chun Feng

9. You're failing a subject, you say...

Bridge That Gap with Chun Feng

10. The love of your life asks you to marry him/her, what do you say?

Let's Face The Music and Chun Feng

11. Your bf/gf is breaking up with you, you tell him/her...

Chun Feng. It's Everywhere You Wanna Be.

12. -skip-

13. What are the best words to describe you?

Your Chun Feng, Right Away

14. If you're going to have a movie about your life, the title is...

Look For The Chun Feng Label

15. Your last words before you die...

Mild Green Chun Feng Liquid

16. Your message to a special someone..

Feel the Chun Feng

17. Title of this post will be...

A Chun Feng is Forever

Singapore Trip!!!

2009-08-10T21:12:00.002+08:00

So as you all know, I didn't went for the gathering at Ai Li's place. That was because I went to singapore with my childhood friend. We've known each other since we're like 7 years old. Yup. It has been a long time.

The purpose of the trip was that he(of course it's a he. Sharon don't simply think) wanted to get his new phone - Samsung Omnia 2 s8000 Jet?(weird and long name). Well, of course to visit some of his relative as well. But the Samsung phone is the primary reason.

So I was at his place on Friday night. We were supposed to depart at 10am. But due to some unforeseen circumstances, namely delay by some people working in a bank, the departure was delayed till 11.45am. We headed southwards toward lunch in Seremban. Lunch includes - 清蒸八丁鱼, 芥兰炒虾球, 芙蓉煎蛋, 梅菜扣肉, and 炸猪手. And followed by a long drive southwards. A long and boring drive all the way till JB.

Reach JB at about 5pm. Maybe a bit later than 5pm. Checked in at the Crystal Crown Hotel. It's parking has it's own lift and the lift to the hotel rooms is at another place. So it was super inconvenient. Rested awhile and then headed towards Singapore. Custom check was super boring as well. And the roads were spinny. Spin spin around and spin summore before reach Singapore's custom. Had dinner at Geylang Rd. Dinner forgot eat what d. But can see lion dancers or dragon dancers parading the streets. 9th August is the Merdeka Day for SG.

After dinner was a short drive to his relative's house. No. 33 Jalan Tanjung was the address. We sat there, chatted and had coffee and watched the TV reporting news about hurricane/typhoon in Taiwan. That channel super pro. One news on hurricane/typhoon can report for 1 whole hour. They talked about the same thing over and over and over again. Flood here, flood there, flood somemore, and more flooding. One whole hour. I was like "Swt, they not sien I also sien". So yeah. After that, went back to JB. Cross the customs again. Spin spin again. Reach hotel. And I read the book "Where Rainbows End". Finished it at 3.19am. It was a touching story. And then sleep(on the floor again due to my bad habit).

Next day at 8 something am wake up for breakfast. Breakfast in the Chatter Corner Cafe within Crsytal Crown(notice the fascination with "C"). Buffet style. Got nasi goreng kampung, roti canai, mee goreng mamak, porridge, eggs, breads, hotdog, and whatever standard breakfast related stuff. I was quite zombie like due to not very sufficient sleep. After breakfast, went to Sentosa Island to play play(yes, that means crossing the custom again, the spinny roads again). Saw the Merlion sculpture?? statue?? It's a weird combination as a sea creature and a land creature gets combined into one. Definitely don't understand what they were thinking when they chose that. So ya. Walked around here and there and took some photo's. Visited Fort Siloso, the fort with the cannons pointing the wrong way during World War 2. Saw some memorablia and some passage that reminded me of Sejarah(MPAJA, Force 136). And had lunch in 九龙 restaurant or something like that. I ordered a 肉骨茶. And to my surprise I get 肉, 骨, and 茶only. 3 pieces of meat stuck on 3 bones and a claypot of soup. Nothing more, nothing less. And for a price of $6.50. For that much money, I can get like 2 servings of 肉骨茶 with better "everything" than that. And they messed up the order cos the cashier was like keep taking orders while the production can't keep up. So I had to wait for erm.....dunno how long before I get my crappy food(Really geram). And thus ends my visit to Singapore.

A long long journey back to Malaysia. Stopped in Melaka for dinner at 万里香satay celup. Fantabulous dinner. Eat till syok syok. Never knew it was that nice. And so a drop off here, a drop off there, reached my friend's place at somewhere close to 11pm.

I Guess It's An Epic Fail

2009-08-04T18:14:00.003+08:00

It begins with me waking up because of stupid mosquito biting me continuosly. So I woke up in a bad mood cos haven't sleep enough. But wake up d cannot sleep back. So I went to press computer for a while. It doesn't help. So I ate something. It doesn't help either. Playing PS3 makes me more frustrated cos I keep dying in the game. So without anything nice to do at home, I decided to drive around.

I get to experience what Eric and Tucker would have to go through. After doing some GoogleMap, I more or less know the way to "Eric"'s and "Tucker"'s house. Just to be safe, I brought along an atlas of KL and Klang Valley with me.

Time of departure: 1515

I set off from my house to "Eric" house. I didn't get lost, just missed one turning and took some time to find the road since it wasn't in the atlas. It was suppose to be a surpirse but then............... The address I received was No. 5 but there was like T5, S5 and other 5s around. So I had to make a call to confirm which No. 5 it was. So suprised failed. But on the good side, I managed to reach that place. I dropped off my package and left for my second destination. But when I reached home I realized that the address I received was s-5. EPIC FAIL.

Time of departure: 1607

I'm headed towards "Tucker"'s house. I took the DUKE thingy, paid RM2 and saved 15mins. Guess that DUKE is worth it after all. Skipped the jam and shortened the distance. It was shmooth shailing all the way except I made a wrong turn. So I arrived there not sure what I should do. I sent a message to "suprise" the target but to my "surprise", the target wasn't even at home. EPIC FAIL. So I had to drop the package and leave. I approached the main gate carefully. I reached for the lettertube(erm...its a roundish tube so i guess it should not be called a letterbox) and hesitated for a moment. Then I threw the letter into the house compound and make a run for it.(I guess it makes me look extremely suspicious). But then when the target reach home, I was told that no one even noticed that I was there.(SWT)

Time of arrival: 1807

Arrived home safely and in one piece. Was caught in some jam on the way home and refueled my car. I though someone would be at home but the home is empty again. I guess its another home alone night.

It Goes Something Like This....

2009-08-04T00:51:00.011+08:00

At first it was like this -> If You're Not The One (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z5td-avxzIY&feature=fvw)

Then something like this happens -> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qBGwa5t27zs (1:53 that part)

So I feel like ->痛哭的人 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QAWLRCm043A)

She used to be this -> 你是我最深爱的人(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bKvdB4D_gIw)

But now -> 爱呢 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yeceJ7Mzclw)

So I'm like this -> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eUl8m4lk2CE (安静)

And I feel like this -> 寂寞的男人 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RSjTaWeO8Mg)

But I know this -> 有多少愛可以重來 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fXcC6xOv1Rw)

Somehow I think I will be like this -> 九百九十九朵玫瑰(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JY_wqLD9r90)

Hopefully she know that I'm like this -> 妳知道我在等妳嗎 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1cWCzx0TYuw)

Because of this -> 特別的愛給特別的妳 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pE1_S-Q142Y)

But that is not what is going to happen because of this -> 我總於失去了妳 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xeme1eFETIc)

So I will have to be like this -> 我會好好過 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rzgyGkdA0wY)

And can only do this -> 守候 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PYBehHkOJpw)

P.S. - Ignore the video if it does not suit you....the important thing is the lyrics(mainly chorus part) or the title of the song.

I Can't Believe I Did That

2009-08-03T00:30:00.003+08:00

Facebook quiz....lots of them....

Examples -> Future Career, Tropical Fruit, Real Major(this is the one i like most) and others...

The Real Major is the best one.....I get something like this "You are fascinated by finance and how money works so you can comprehend the true meaning of the universe".

This would roughly translate to using money to buy telescope for star-gazing. (My interpretation)

Erm....dunno what else to write.....my piano practice is going smoothly....a few more days and i'll complete the piece i'm practicing....http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=08RYp-uDpPo so that you can have a glimpse of how it will sound like.

Sometimes I Feel Like This....

2009-08-01T03:08:00.003+08:00

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZcZc-2LL8zU

2009-07-30T03:32:00.002+08:00

I guess it's a good movie since I felt like blogging about it. I guess it's a movie Ivy might like. The title of the movie is "PS I Love You". Maybe you watched it before, maybe you haven't but I felt that it is a good movie.

Erm...I don't know how to put it in words but it's sorta like the guy made arrangements before he dies to help his wife to move on. So he left letters and some instructions to her friends and family to help her after he died. Hmm.....putting it like this doesn't seems to make it attractive. But anyways, you should watch it la.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/P.S._I_Love_You_(film)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1-as6Kbcj4c

Something nice to keep my emotions in check.

On a side note, this month is the month that I blogged the most. Lots of things has happened. Some good, some bad and some in the middle. But I found out something or confirmed something about me. But that will be for some other time. For now, this will be it.

P.S. I Love You (copy the movie =>)

Family Trip

2009-07-26T02:07:00.005+08:00

Well as the topic says, I had a family trip to Genting Highlands. Participants include Dad, Mom, Second Bro + Sis-in-law, Third Bro, and me. We left home at 4.30pm on the 24th of July. Went to Gohtong Jaya to eat dinner. Dinner includes 清蒸顺壳, 生虾东粉, 清炒gai lan苗, 清炒yao mak苗, and 僵茸田鸡. And after that we went to our rooms in Highland Hotel. Room 8392 and 8390. Had a short rest and toilet time, we went to the casino.

It was my first trip to the casino. Well, as I am only 21+, this is the first time I get the chance to go into a casino. We walked around the casino and have a look around. Neither of my brothers have been into the casino in Genting before. Mom gave us each a $25 chip to begin with. We gathered around the roulette and begin observing. My brothers betted and I waited for the feel. After a few rounds I felt the number between 17/20. My Second bro told me to be more conservative and bet on the 2 row. I followed his idea and the number that came out was 17!!! Well....my 18 to 1 odds became a 2 to 1 odds. But nonetheless, I still win la. We had our fun in the casino and happy to say Uncle Lim belanja the dinner and tomorrow's breakfast la.

After casino session, we went back to our rooms and watch tv for awhile. There was this "I Survived A Japanese Gameshow" on 8TV. Its was a japanese gameshow with ang-mohs as contestants. The guai-lows were like "Man, I'm so stressed" but the Japanese host and crowd was like having a good time. Even at the end where someone got eliminated, there was a bunch of japanese dudes in tuxedo coming in and carried the loser out of the place as if the loser had just won. But the guai-low was like "Man, I so don't like this losing." and stuff like that.

After that, we went for a drink. A cup of hot coffee(I got a latte) in a chilling night. Ahh....how nice. And McDonald's at 3am. Muahahahaha. And I found my collector's edition there.

That be it for the day. I slept on the floor(bad habit of mine) even though there is sufficient space on the bed. It was a good night sleep. No mosquitos and cool weather. What more could I ask for. But then, the dreadful wake up call from the "Empress". I woke up blur blur and took a shower. That shower left me shivering after I left the toilet. Ya. It was COLD. A very cold morning. A warming breakfast at (forgot the name d), I was back to normal, braving the cold wind as if they were nothing.(Well, they were nothing even before I took a bath)

So, a bit of dilly-dallying and walking here and there, 我们带着依依不舍的心情回家. <- standard chinese composition ending.

My leg ached after coming back from the trip. Walked a lot. Casino too big. Sleep like pig. Reach at 1pm. Sleep till 7pm. Went for my second sis-in-law's sister's full moon. Eat, talked, go home. Found out that 3 girls if they marry me they will have a blissed wedding. Suddenly feel like high in demand. (Erm....you know who you are la....I shan't put any names here....P&C ma....)

Yalor....one of them say if I try hard enough I got chance, summore give me house address and say only one person can reach her house with the address only. Will give it a try. Potential name change: Eric

The other one say very hard to get her for breakfast. (Might have to face father halau or risk police coming). Received info about 1st one where house got parang, father can make bomb. Says her house safer no parang and no bombs. Might affect the weightage. Potential name change: Tucker

Third one I think still afraid of lizard. But she's very far away la so very hard la. Potential name change: Oscar

Then there is this conversation.

I told her that my friends did the FB thing and got that result. She say "Good lor, got 3 potential" I asked her whether she can become a potential or not.

She said:

"this is my last long holiday

for the next 4 years

it wont be fair for me to make you wait

and i dont think its right either"

so yalor......yalor.......You 3 got hope liao. She sorta said "No" to me. So prepare yourself la. If you receive some anonymous flower or letter or maybe chocolate(I know you don't like it so I wont send it to you), it maybe from me la. Just giving you a heads up.

Update....

2009-07-22T01:40:00.002+08:00

Some people requested for an update so here it is....

My brother bought a new printer/scanner/photocopy 3 in 1 machine for the house but sadly the comp's CD-ROM rosak liao, cannot install the software. So now the comp is pending a repair but dunno when. Tried out the printer using my bro's laptop. It works well so now no need to pay 15cents per page when printing in college liao.

Printed out a new music sheet for my piano titled "To Zanarkand" (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h-0G_FI61a8). A much simpler piece to practice than Aerith's Theme. Practice has begun and completion hopefully soon la.

Watched Harry Potter 6 with college friends. Was initially a sing K session but due to insufficient members we change plans and watch a movie instead. The movie was ok ok but kinda not up to what I expected la. I imagined a lot of how the magic stuff would look like but the movie showed totally different things. And the movies skipped a lot when compared to the book.

Also watched Public Enemy by Johnny Depp with my brother and cousin. He looks much better in Pirates than PE. Also less charismatic. Anyways, the movie is like a waste of RM7(student price). Totally don't get the movie at all. Boring all the way, no climax, and kinda lame gua.

Yalor...i guess this is the update of what has happened since the last few days...

Untitled

2009-07-17T21:52:00.002+08:00

I saw something like this....

"Pain, loneliness and a constant urge of wanting to cry.. perhaps?

And for that very same reason, I am glad & beyond fortunate that I have a family to turn to when the going gets rough, that I have supportive and wonderful good friends whom I can count on."

What if the mask is worn even in front of family? How can one turn to family for help like that?

The burden of guilt.............................

I am who I am...I want to be who I am...is it too much to ask?

Sorta an update....

2009-07-16T01:12:00.002+08:00

Well....for the pass few days I've done nothing much....been practicing on the piano with little improvement....maybe need to spend more time on practicing....

I've also completed a PS3 game titled "Infamous". Nothing much to the game.....it's about a guy who got zapped by a bomb and gained electrical powers....

My second story also got a bit of update....still deciding whether to give a happy ending or a sad ending....

Also played Risk with my brothers...which I won one of them. If you don't know what Risk is, it's a board game on the topic of world domination...you win either by dominating the world thus defeating all your opponents or you complete all your quests....

Oh ya, not to forget....I spent like 3 days at my friend's house....RC'ed a lot while searching for songs....I got 2 CD's worth of music which I passed to Ai Li when we met during Bee Li's birthday...

Which brings me to Bee Li's birthday...there was 6 of us there to celebrate with Bee Li (not counting Leng Keat). Before Bee Li arrive, Edmund was like "Sorry lah, only got 6 of us to celebrate with Bee Li. The rest cannot make it." We sorta tried to surprise Bee Li (dunno whether it worked or not...). We had dinner at Louisiana(dunno name correct or not but the place where we had eat all you can spaghetti for 12.90 that place la). After that we went to Subang for dessert at Snowflakes(introduced by Betsy).

Well....this post is sorta jumbled up....cos my mind also in a mess i guess....too long didn't work so starting to rust...

But all in all....if it doesn't suit you....免强没辛富....

All things in moderation....and we are all here to support each other....

^.^V

Bonus Track - Moonrise Moonset

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KCtxxQ9TBpI

This was inspired by someone we know....i hope you know its you...and its definitely not MJ...

2009-07-08T01:35:00.005+08:00

With Micheal Jackson's "You Are Not Alone" in your head.....

Another day has gone, you were not online
How could this be? I'm worried about you
You never said to me....how you were feeling
How could I know....unless you tell me so....

Everyday i sit and keep waiting....for you to appear,
but somehow you just never show up....

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

Just the other night....
I thought I hear you cry....
Looking for someone....
To share the time with you....
I can hear your prayers....
Your burdens I will bear....
Though I'm not the one....
I am here to help....

Everyday i see you hurting there....
I wanted to help you....
But something kept me going close to you....

And you are not alone....
I am here with you....
Though we're far apart...
I am always here....
You can call to me....
I will hear you out....
Just a SMS....
I will be with you...

You are not alone....
I am here for you....
I may not be the one....
But I will try my best....

Just SMS and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there...

And you are not alone....
I am here with you....
Though we're far apart....
I'm just one call away....

You are not alone....
For I am here with you....
Though you're far away....
I am here to stay....
You are not alone....
For I am here with you....
Though we're far apart....
You're always in my heart....

For you are not alone.....

Flowers for Algernon

2009-07-02T21:21:00.003+08:00

This is a storybook that I have just finished reading. It talks about how a mentally retarded person or so called "exceptional" was given a chance to become a genius. Lab results indicates that animals will become smarter after an operation. But no one knows what will happen if it was done on a human being and no one knows how long it will last or what will happen after that.

The main character is Charlie Gordon. He is the "exceptional" person chosen for the operation. Algernon is a lab rat that has already undertaken the operation. Before the operation, Charlie was no where as good as Algernon at going through a maze. His eye cue was 70 something. But after the operation, his IQ steady increased to 180. He became a genius. He was able to master many different language, make argument about different things and challenge previously unchallenged ideas.

Before the operation, he has friends who laughs at him but he didn't know that. After the operation, he knew they used to laugh at him. They even started to fear him because he has become more superior than them.

As time goes by, he researched into the operation he had undertaken. He found that the increased performance of his brain is directly proportional to the deterioration of the brain. The smarter he become, the faster his brain will weaken.

So in the end, he went from "exceptional" in the lower spectrum to "exceptional" in the upper spectrum and back again. He worked hard to gain that much just to know that he will lose it all.

Can you imagine how it will feel like to be worshipping someone like a god, then know that they are just some insecure, insignificant human being, and then fall back down to become worse than them again.........

If you had the chance to go through it......would you want to try it?

I guess I can say this....

2009-06-28T15:47:00.002+08:00

"I am a blessed person!!!"

Not sure how I should explain it but.....yeah I'm a blessed person.

I think I have more than what a person could ask for. A whole family, good friend, good "brain", and also a lot of blessings which I don't think I deserve. That's why it's called blessings.

Don't Ask Why

2009-06-18T03:53:00.003+08:00

As of the time I'm writing this post, I'm feeling very down.....

This question came to my mind...."What if you have 6 months left? What would you do?"

I probably would play like there's no tomorrow.........every game that i can get my hands on......

I guess the things that keeps me happy when I'm not with my friends is games and music.....

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Man....i can't believe i'm in this condition for so long......more than an hour d....but thanks to Mandy i feel better already....wasn't expecting to see her online at 3 something a.m...but after talking to her i feel alot better.....

Prologue

2009-06-13T02:32:00.004+08:00

Harry是个浪子, 靠街头卖艺为生. "对面的女孩看过来,看过来,看过来...."(任贤齐,对面的女孩看过来) 这时Mandy走过. "这里的表演很精采,請不要假裝不理不采." Mandy 对Harry回眸一笑. Harry的音乐不知不觉变成 "我对你有一點動心(張信哲, 有一點動心)." Harry抱著吉他追上Mandy:"小姐,小姐,这是我的名片(吴宗宪, 小姐这是我的名片)." Mandy在卡片后面写上她的电话号码. Harry开心不已, 有如得到宝物. 但是有种" 開不了口讓她知道( 周杰倫, 開不了口)的感觉. Harry终于鼓起勇气打电话给Mandy.

Harry约了Mandy出来. Harry: "你是我最深爱的女人, 你有最美丽的嘴唇,你拥有最动人的眼神,你带给我幸福和快乐.(永邦, 你是我最深爱的女人)" Mandy: "我爱你你是我的罗密欧, 我愿意变成你的祝英台(曹格 & 卓文宣, 梁山伯与茱丽叶)." Mandy:"再靠近一點點就讓你牽手, 再勇敢一點點, 我就跟你走(SHE, 戀人未滿)." Harry抓紧机会握住Mandy的手.

Harry与Mandy手牽手在漫步. Harry:"我想就這樣牽著妳的手不放開(周杰倫, 簡單愛)." Mandy:"如果你决定跟随感觉, 为爱勇敢一次, 如果你说我们有彼此. 如果你会开始相信, 这般恋爱心情, 我只要你一件如果的事, 我会奋不顾身地去爱你(范玮琪 & 张韶涵, 如果的事)."

过了不久, Harry was like
"情人節的那個夜裡想要給你意外的驚喜
我也開開心心從新加坡越過長堤到新山去找你
你看見我也不是很高興只是陪我隨便聊聊幾句
當我把禮物送給你你也說別傻了這句話傷了我的心" (任賢齊 & 周華健, 別傻了)

Harry失落的回家. 几天后, Mandy去Harry的家找他.

Harry:"你问我为什么不再给你安慰, 在寒风中漫步有家不回, 好几天不见面也无所谓, 你问我为什么把你的信退回, 又把照片撕碎毫不后悔, 你问我为了什么开始喝酒, 而且每次都喝醉, 不要说我做得不对, 不要说你永远不会, 因为我在无意间听见有人叫你宝贝, 不要说这是个误会, 请不要在我面前流泪, 因为我明明听见有人叫你宝贝, 你让他叫你宝贝 (林健辉, 我听见有人叫你宝贝)."
Mandy:"爱真的需要勇气来面对流言蜚语(梁静茹, 勇气)."
Harry:"分手吧我们分手吧. 不要在骗我说你还爱著我. (张震岳, 分手吧)."
Mandy:"我知道你还是爱着我 (By2, 我知道)."
Harry:"你走吧, 我不哭, 無論多痛苦 (林佳儀 , 一個人的我依然會微笑)."

傷心的Mandy离开了Harry的家. Harry左思右想, 该怎么做, 追还是不追? 结果, Harry 还是觉得追.
Harry冲出门外追上Mandy,握住她的手:"留給我, 請珍惜這段爱情,也許一天可以既話准許我多愛一次(周星馳, 家有喜事~~相逢何必曾相識)." <- this one in Cantonese
Mandy:"且把今晚的諾言留待以後一一發展篇寫愛的經典 (吳君如, 家有喜事~~相逢何必曾相識)." <- this one also

到最后, Harry & Mandy: "幸福和快樂是結局(王光良, 童話)."

THE END.

Author's Note: Due to Ivy's insistent of having a happy ending, I make the story end with a happy ending.

Signs Of Stress

2009-06-02T21:05:00.003+08:00

Symptom #1: Waking up somewhere far from initial sleeping position.
Symptom #2: Waking up still feeling tired.
Symptom #3: Increase frequency of fingernail biting.
Symptom #4: Increase frequency of eating at undesired time or larger than usual portion.
Symptom #5: Tension in the shoulder blade area/Feeling of bearing a heavy weight upon shoulders.
Symptom #6: Increase amount of time sleeping(usually not during night time).
Symptom #7: Decrease in bowel efficiency.
Symptom #8: The feeling of wanting to vomit.

Symptoms progress from #1 to #8 as stress level increase.

Origin of Stress: Unconscious desire to achieve what others deemed as acceptable.

Current situation: All the symptoms have been visibly confirmed.

Current course of action: /ignore
Efficiency: none-what-so-ever

Current status: Degrading of body delayed by repeated dosage of music (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yeVzyKv2KBs&feature=channel)

Work Efficiency: Unable to rate as body is going through rapid changes.

Author's Note: ..............................

One Ton Mee

2009-05-23T09:54:00.003+08:00

She looks sad when she heard that class was cancelled since she still had to come on Friday. So I ask her out for lunch as I have to come to pay my fees as well.

So we met up at main block to decide what to have for lunch. She said she wanted to eat at my area there. Maybe chili pan mee or something. So I brought her to my favourite one ton mee shop since she wanted to try out the food.

While we were eating, she said the food was very nice. She told me that she never finished a serving of one ton mee before due to certain reason and that was the first time she is able to finish one whole plate. She said there is a feeling of "幸福"(happiness).

I told her that if I ever wanted to give her something it would be "幸福" like what I wrote in FB. We went for a drink afterward. She told me she wanted a lunch with me because she felt that I am facing some sort of unresolved issue. We had a little talk and somehow the focus shifted from talking about me to talking about her.

Well....i guess that's the gist of it.

One ton mee is the way to happiness(Goh, 09).

Record Breaker!!!

2009-03-28T10:07:00.002+08:00

Woohoo.....I broke my bowling record....My current career high is 115....115....115.

Yeah, i'm estatic right now....

Well...I went bowling with my churchmates yesterday. Like 30 of us there. Yeah Maaaan. I'm da top bowler lol. Well, kinda shows how low our quality is. But thats not important. THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IS I BROKE MY RECORD!!!!!!!!

Assignments

2009-03-03T13:34:00.002+08:00

This week (the past few days) I have been spending a lot of time in other people's home to do assignments. This is the very first time I had spent so much time to do assignments.

Even though so much assignment to do, I still found some time to try out the counselling thing. Well...............(note many dots) don't really know what it's suppose to do but I felt like it's the same as talking to a friend(but have to pay la).

Same old stuff happening la...

Last but not least -> Happy Birthday IVY!!!

Something nice....

2009-02-16T10:56:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HpfH4vqlfmk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=42E2fAWM6rA

the first one is funny and the second one is meaningful...

Valentine's Day

2009-02-15T06:15:00.002+08:00

Hmm...this Valentine's Day....at least part of it was spent with another girl...

Well...we had some food and chatted for a little....

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Then there is this church event called Halloween Vibe....

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This question popped into my mind -> Which do you think hurt more?? "Being left out" or "Not fitting in"?

It's Been A While

2009-01-14T22:00:00.003+08:00

It's been a while since I wrote anything in my blog. With all the Christmas and New Year hype, I played too much to the point of forgetting to blog. And with the beginning of a new semester, assignments start to pile up.

A new year, a new beginning. Another year of pain and suffering. Hopefully the reward at the end is worth going through all the trouble.

Here's a little blessing for the new year.

B-egin the year with
L-ove in you heart
E-xpect blessings
S-hare goodness
S-erve Jesus
I-nspire someone
N-ever forget to thank God
G-od is always with us

What I Want For New Year

2008-12-25T11:48:00.002+08:00

I do not ask for any physical possession. I think I have as much one could as for. And if I wanted any more, it would be delivered to me somehow. That is why I don't think much of physical possessions.

Christmas has not been a very happy day for me. The only thing that can get on my nerves is my family. Although family should be a source of comfort, a place where you can find joy, what I get is a lot of comparison, that kind of look where it says "You are not good enough!", and also the always judgemental look.

It's not easy being the youngest. I have 3 brothers who are godlike. And because of that my parents wants me to be like them. I don't want to be like them. I just wanted to be myself

Insert -> Numb - Linkin Park

Everytime my brother (this is a specific brother) does something weird, my parents would always find some excuse to explain why he does that. But when it comes to me, the first thing that they would think of is there must be something wrong with me. Or something is wrong with me. No matter what I do, I can never seem to get any approval from them. Every single thing I do they always have to be critical about it. Even when it was the best decision for me.

Why can't they accept me for who I am? Why do they always have to be so judgemental on me? Why can't they let me be who I want to be? Is it really that I have to be like my brother for me to gain some approval from them?

This is what i really want for new year. I wish that my parents aren't so judgemental about me and would really accept me for who I am. I wish they would stop comparing me to my brother and stop pushing me down. I wish that would stop giving the kind of look which say "You are not good enough!".

Holidays

2008-12-17T11:22:00.003+08:00

The exams are over and the holidays have arrived. It's time to relax, have fun and enjoy.

Kinda in a relaxed mode already so not gonna write much.

P.S. - My brother is back. More people to play with me. ^o^

Thank You!!!

2008-12-04T20:05:00.002+08:00

First of all, I want to thank all my fellow PSY 202 members for giving me all the help and support I needed throughout the entire semester. I know I have not done enough to reflect the amount of help that I have received. But I want you to know that your deeds are forever in my heart.

Secondly, I want to thank all those that did not walk away from me when I exhibited some rather erratic emotions. Sorry for having you all to go through those times and thank you for not leaving me alone.

不用担心的太多我会一直好好过.

I Didn't Mean To Be Like That.

2008-11-30T13:58:00.006+08:00

I think I should apologize for my behavior during the pass few days. Sorry for making you(if you belong in this group) worry. I know you are there looking out for me but at times I just can't control my emotions. When it happens, I tend be shirk away from everything. That includes friends, family, even food and games. And I also become very negative on my approach to everything. Sorry.

How Scary A "Label" Is!!!

2008-11-23T21:42:00.000+08:00

Doing assignments for 210 made me look into some of the major conflicts in the world. My group looked into the Rwanda Genocide. It was estimated like 800,000 people died during the genocide. But that's not the main point. The worst thing that happened during the genocide was the labeling that was used.

I read a bit of Phillip Zimbardo's "The Lucifer Effect". In the book he talked briefly on the Rwanda Genocide. In his book, there was this Tutsi lady (forgot name already cos book at Ai Li's place) who was a women's right activist. She was sent to supposedly bring peace by giving some sort of talk. But what she did was she placed some "label" on the Hutu women, dehumanizing them and inciting the Tutsi male to even rape them. She said something like Tutsi women are more appealing than Hutu women so Hutu women shouldn't be allowed to live.

That is what i can remember for now. But i can tell you if you have the chance do read "The Lucifer Effect" by Phillip Zimbardo.

Too bad i read that part only after the assignment had been handed in. T_T

Random quote of the week
Some of the worst things are done with the best intentions.

To Be A Better Man....

2008-11-12T22:35:00.000+08:00

It really pains me to see people around me feeling hurt and I can't do a thing to help them. I know sometimes there is really nothing I can do to help them. Many a time I am in a position to help them but I lack the required ability to help them. I don't like that part of me. But if I better myself to help other, the dark side of me will somehow make me look down on others which would hurt them even more. I know this sounds crazy but I know myself well enough.

I really don't like myself right now. I am waiting for an answer. To be or not to be.

Should I decide to make myself better, and if you think you are my friend, please help me to not look down on others. I might sound like I'm boasting but as I said, I know myself well enough. I know how far I can go if I wanted to move.

And one last thing. Sorry to those who are around me which I should be able to help but wasn't able to. And also sorry to those who I had look down upon. I know when I said those words I sounded like a b*****d. Please forgive me.

My Big Day!

2008-11-10T00:08:00.000+08:00

Well, as of now I am legally able to go to prison. In other words, it means I'm 21 already. Today is my birthday. Yesterday, which was few minutes ago, I had 2 birthday cake. One from my family and one from my church mates.

Dai gor zai already. Grow up liao.

So here I dedicate a song to me.

Happy Birthday to me,
Happy Birthday to me,
Happy Birthday to me,
Happy Birthday to me.

*make a wish and blow candles*

Halloween Party!!!

2008-11-01T13:47:00.000+08:00

On Friday, my church had a halloween party. We spent a few nights to prepare the whole place. That is the reason i missed class on Thursday. We were there at 4pm and worked until 4am. So i overslept and then don't want to go for morning class and tutorials.

Well...back to talk about the party. The regulars were suppose to come in costume. That means me too. So I was scratching my head thinking of what to dress up as. Then my mom gave me this wild idea. And i went along with it. I rented my costume from a costume shop in Sri Hartamas. I give you all 3 chance to guess what my costume was.

Guess 1.
Guess 2.
Guess 3.

Probably all 3 of your guesses would be wrong. Don't worry. I'll post my costume in Facebook then you all can see my costume.

At the party, my costume was the most unique. All eyes were on me. Everyone who saw me was like 'Wow'. Er...the games that we had was some simple game. In the party we had a dracula, a corpse bride, the Joker, a cowgirl, a few Pirates, and many other people in normal costume. And we had a cool theme song titled "This is Halloween". If you never heard it before, try to find it in youtube. It sounds cool.

Well...I'm off trick or treating now. So till next time.

http://vibe-campus.blogspot.com/ is the site where you can catch a glimpse of the happenings during the party and also my costume. I won the best dress award eh. Don't play play.

I never thought that would happen to me...

2008-10-27T05:35:00.000+08:00

FEVER!!!

It has been so long since I had a fever. So long that I forgot how it felt. Yesterday morning when I woke up, my body was like aching and I felt dizzy. I thought it was just the effects of waking up so i stumble on to the computer and tried to get some work done. I do do do then i started to feel warm. And then I felt like burning. I noticed that I wasn't sweating at all. I touched my forehead and its 'sizzling' hot. So i drank lots of water which sorta make things worse because it made me walk to the toilet many times. Each time i move some part of my body aches. So the whole day i ended up rolling on the floor in the TV room.

After a 12 hours torment, my brother came home and saw my sickly look. He gave me a Panad*l. After I took it, I became better. Ah...the power of medicine. Why didn't i thought about it earlier? Guess i'm really not used to falling sick. So now i'm healed and back in action.

Side note - This is gonna be a busy week for me. Many assigments, little time. Somemore have to prepare for Halloween. Haihz....T_T

SORRY!!!

2008-10-19T15:06:00.000+08:00

I think it's best for me to make a formal apology here.

SORRY MANDY!!!
SORRY BOON WOEI!!!

Ok, that being that lets get on with business. I have no idea what am I going to write. The only major event that happened this week that my life group had a potluck at my house. There were a total of 12 people that came to my house. They brought a wide variety of food. We have fried rice, glutinous rice, salad, mixed vege, nuggets, some dessert with 汤圆 in it and lotsa fruits. Really really lotsa fruits. So much that you can eat them for 3 days and still haven't finish it.

Before we had dinner we did a video on what we would be like 20 years from now. I ended up saying "I cant believe its year 2009 and we're still here." So comes dinner. Then I gave them a tour of my house. Seems like we didn't do much because most of the time was spent on talking about lame jokes. But i learnt a new hand signal. Kinda cool signal.

Well...i'm outta words for now. So till next time.

Interesting...

2008-10-17T09:46:00.000+08:00

Yesterday after exam, the bunch of us went to Ai Li's place to hang out. As we were chilling there, Mandy took out a sandwich from her bag.

Mandy : This is my breakfast.
Ivy : Huh? You haven't eat breakfast a?
Boon Woei: 大的不吃, 小的也要吃.

We were like shocked. Boon Woei, Boon Woei. I never thought you would do something like that. Much less with Mandy. Tsk Tsk Tsk. Boon Woei, you better 负责任 or else bad things could happen.

Well...if you are reading my blog, most probably you were there as well. So you know how the story actually goes. But then again, I can't believe Boon Woei did something like that.

P.S. - Mandy, sorry if I (sorta) defamed you. Boon Woei, you totally deserved it. XD

我相信你是可以的.

2008-10-13T22:10:00.000+08:00

On the surface, those words shows that the parents are giving the kid autonomy. But under the surface, those words significantly limits what the kid can or cannot do. When a parent tells their kid that we believe that you can do it, it comes with a tremendously high amount of expectation. The expectation would in turn pressurize the kid to perform to meet expectation. This means the kid have to study hard, read, no-time-to-play, to meet the expectation. See, this means less time to do what the kid wants.

For a moment there you thought that your parents have finally given up nagging at you when they tell you this phrase, how wrong can you be. They just changed their tactic from a physical irritation to an invisible psychological pressure. And there you are thinking you can outlast your parents by ignoring them.

Maybe you don't get what I am trying to say, but whatever man...if you get it so much better for you. If you don't get it you still have your peace of mind. So nobody lose and everyone wins.

Erm...don't mind me. I'm just under a lot of pressure to meet "expectations".

I never expected it...

2008-10-11T01:06:00.000+08:00

I eat a lot...it's not something new to many of you. Even so, I normally eat a bit more than the usual crowd.

Today after I went for my church life group, we went yum-cha at the D.U. cafe in Kota Damansara. Don't know why it was called D.U. cafe while located in Kota Damansara. I went there quite frequently and always ordered the same food. The One Ton Mee (wan-tan mee) with double the mee. So as usual the boss see my face and he nodded at me. He knows when he see my face means I would order wan-tan mee. Because of me many of my churchmates also ordered wan-tan mee. The boss was very happy for the good business. Me being a frequent customer get my food first. With my super duper fast eating speed, my friend measured that it took me less than 60 seconds to finish the whole thing. So there I was looking at them eat. One of them suddenly said "Ei Chun Feng, go for another one la. I bet you can finish faster than Jun." Jun is my life group leader and a girl. XD. Not to discriminate but I don't think a girl can eat fast. Especially when they are chatting at the same time. So after some "negotiation", my friend manage to coerce me to order a second plate of wan-tan mee. The boss was like shocked when my friend went to order for me. His eyes was like 50 cent coin that big. This was the very first time I order twice from him in that same meal. So comes my food and in a flash, you turn your head away and the food is gone that fast, I finish my second plate. Jun was like not even near finishing her food. The whole bunch was like "Walao Chun Feng, eat so fast!!!" A few of them also said "Eh Chun Feng, go for third round. This time we belanja." I was like "Er, cannot d. Tangki full d."

Well...I never expected that I would do such crazy stuff...This shows how much peer pressure can affect one's decision. Even a routinous person like me can be made to change my usual style.
One Ton Mee.......I feel like weighting one ton already....T_T

In The Beginning...

2008-10-09T22:21:00.000+08:00

Well...don't ask me why I did this but I thought I give it a try since many of my friends keeps a blog.

This is my first serious attempt at maintaining a blog. I hope that I can keep updating my blog and not give up halfway.

Wow...I was lost for words all of a sudden.

A little about me...if you are reading my blog you probably know me already since I don't think people who don't know me will stumble upon my blog. So ya, I'm kinda reserved at some times but in front of my friend I kinda make a lot of noise. Most important point that I am sure about myself is that I am super duper uber routinous. I can stick to the same routine over a long period of time. This means waking up at similar time, eating the same food everyday, and almost everything else is following a fixed pattern. So if you guys wanna find me, I'm most probably at the few place I would appear in.

Er...i guess this is it for now...still not used to writing something apart from assignments so I shall call it a day. Till next time I write again. (Hopefully soon. XD)