I Didn't Mean To Be Like That.

I think I should apologize for my behavior during the pass few days. Sorry for making you(if you belong in this group) worry. I know you are there looking out for me but at times I just can't control my emotions. When it happens, I tend be shirk away from everything. That includes friends, family, even food and games. And I also become very negative on my approach to everything. Sorry.

How Scary A "Label" Is!!!

Doing assignments for 210 made me look into some of the major conflicts in the world. My group looked into the Rwanda Genocide. It was estimated like 800,000 people died during the genocide. But that's not the main point. The worst thing that happened during the genocide was the labeling that was used.

I read a bit of Phillip Zimbardo's "The Lucifer Effect". In the book he talked briefly on the Rwanda Genocide. In his book, there was this Tutsi lady (forgot name already cos book at Ai Li's place) who was a women's right activist. She was sent to supposedly bring peace by giving some sort of talk. But what she did was she placed some "label" on the Hutu women, dehumanizing them and inciting the Tutsi male to even rape them. She said something like Tutsi women are more appealing than Hutu women so Hutu women shouldn't be allowed to live.

That is what i can remember for now. But i can tell you if you have the chance do read "The Lucifer Effect" by Phillip Zimbardo.

Too bad i read that part only after the assignment had been handed in. T_T

Random quote of the week
Some of the worst things are done with the best intentions.

To Be A Better Man....

It really pains me to see people around me feeling hurt and I can't do a thing to help them. I know sometimes there is really nothing I can do to help them. Many a time I am in a position to help them but I lack the required ability to help them. I don't like that part of me. But if I better myself to help other, the dark side of me will somehow make me look down on others which would hurt them even more. I know this sounds crazy but I know myself well enough.

I really don't like myself right now. I am waiting for an answer. To be or not to be.

Should I decide to make myself better, and if you think you are my friend, please help me to not look down on others. I might sound like I'm boasting but as I said, I know myself well enough. I know how far I can go if I wanted to move.

And one last thing. Sorry to those who are around me which I should be able to help but wasn't able to. And also sorry to those who I had look down upon. I know when I said those words I sounded like a b*****d. Please forgive me.

My Big Day!

Well, as of now I am legally able to go to prison. In other words, it means I'm 21 already. Today is my birthday. Yesterday, which was few minutes ago, I had 2 birthday cake. One from my family and one from my church mates.

Dai gor zai already. Grow up liao.

So here I dedicate a song to me.

Happy Birthday to me,
Happy Birthday to me,
Happy Birthday to me,
Happy Birthday to me.

*make a wish and blow candles*

Halloween Party!!!

On Friday, my church had a halloween party. We spent a few nights to prepare the whole place. That is the reason i missed class on Thursday. We were there at 4pm and worked until 4am. So i overslept and then don't want to go for morning class and tutorials.

Well...back to talk about the party. The regulars were suppose to come in costume. That means me too. So I was scratching my head thinking of what to dress up as. Then my mom gave me this wild idea. And i went along with it. I rented my costume from a costume shop in Sri Hartamas. I give you all 3 chance to guess what my costume was.

Guess 1.
Guess 2.
Guess 3.

Probably all 3 of your guesses would be wrong. Don't worry. I'll post my costume in Facebook then you all can see my costume.

At the party, my costume was the most unique. All eyes were on me. Everyone who saw me was like 'Wow'. Er...the games that we had was some simple game. In the party we had a dracula, a corpse bride, the Joker, a cowgirl, a few Pirates, and many other people in normal costume. And we had a cool theme song titled "This is Halloween". If you never heard it before, try to find it in youtube. It sounds cool.

Well...I'm off trick or treating now. So till next time.

http://vibe-campus.blogspot.com/ is the site where you can catch a glimpse of the happenings during the party and also my costume. I won the best dress award eh. Don't play play.