To Be A Better Man....

It really pains me to see people around me feeling hurt and I can't do a thing to help them. I know sometimes there is really nothing I can do to help them. Many a time I am in a position to help them but I lack the required ability to help them. I don't like that part of me. But if I better myself to help other, the dark side of me will somehow make me look down on others which would hurt them even more. I know this sounds crazy but I know myself well enough.

I really don't like myself right now. I am waiting for an answer. To be or not to be.

Should I decide to make myself better, and if you think you are my friend, please help me to not look down on others. I might sound like I'm boasting but as I said, I know myself well enough. I know how far I can go if I wanted to move.

And one last thing. Sorry to those who are around me which I should be able to help but wasn't able to. And also sorry to those who I had look down upon. I know when I said those words I sounded like a b*****d. Please forgive me.