Monday, August 31, 2009

我能给的只是一个微笑。

看着你脸上伤心的表情, 我感到很无奈。我了解你内心的痛苦但却帮不上一点忙。我唯一可以给你的是一个微笑。希望我的微笑能让你的世界从见光明。 让你那灿烂的笑容再一次挂在你脸上。我希望我的微笑减少你所感到的痛。让你不再终日以泪洗脸。我恨我的无能,不能把一切的痛苦赶走。我恨我的无助,不能再为你做出任何东西。更可恨的是我当时的行为,做出了不可挽回的错误。当初……太迟了。已经没有回头路可走了。多希望一切可以从来。但是,已经来不及了。

还记得当初我们第一次见面,我被你的笑容吸引着了。你的笑容让我真正有一个人生的目标。是你的微笑让我做出我这一生最大的努力。让我在短短的几年里打拼出了一片江山。让我站在我人生的最高点。而我也做出了我人生最好的决定。就在那一天,那一家餐馆,那一个时候,我在人群当众向你求婚。而你点了点头,那一杀那是我最开心的时候。我仿佛飞到九霄云外。我们俩拥抱在一起良久,周围的人都在为我们道喜,祝福我们。也记得餐馆的老板很大方的请了我们当天的晚餐。也记得餐馆外放着烟花,似乎在为我们庆祝。

为了你我继续努力打拼,把事业推上了另一个高峰。好消息不仅如此。当我从工作回来后,看见你脸上那藏不住的笑容。你抱着我说 : 我怀孕了。 我再一次飞到九霄云外。真没想到我将会成为一位爸爸了。我似乎觉得我就是世界最幸福的人。我们俩抱在一起,讨论我们孩子的名字。

可惜好景不长在。我们开开心心的回家途中,一辆车从不知道什么方向撞了过来。我俩受伤被送进医院。我还好,只受了轻伤,只需要留院观察几天。你却很不幸的受了更重的伤。我清醒时你还在手术室里进行手术。过了良久,医生终于完成了手术。医生对我说: 大的是没什么大碍,可是小的就保不住了。我的世界顿时崩溃了。我的孩子就这样没了。撞我的那个人死了就一了百了,我们活下来的就得活受罪。天阿,你是多么的不公平。当你清醒后,我把消息告诉了你。从那天起,我在也没看见你那灿烂的笑容了。

自古祸不单行。我不仅失去了我的孩子,也在短短几个月内失去了我的事业。他们说什么金融风暴,金融危机。在几个月内,全世界的经济衰退。许多公司倒闭。我的公司也遭殃了。我差不多失去一切了。可是天不作美,偏偏要把我的一切拿走。也在这时候,检验报告显示你的了癌症。肿瘤长在许多重要器官一带,医生们都不敢开刀把肿瘤切除。而我也没有资金来为你付手术的费用。

我知道我为了你可以做出任何事情。我更知道我不能失去你。我能不惜一切为你,只要你安全健康。我更知道我不应该做出当初的决定。但是为了你,我把一切的禁忌抛开。在这世道低迷的时候,要在短时间内获得一笔可观的钱,除了行偏之外别无他路。我也不知道我为什么会答应他们加入他们一伙。他们说有本事从银行取出不少钱。钱,就因为钱,我跟着他们去。他们说他们已经做好准备,银行里应该没别人,只有自己人。当内应把门打开后,我们一窝蜂的进入银行。就在我们大式搜刮时,好死不死警铃突然响起来。我们往外冲,往车子跑。才发现车子不见了。而警察从四面八方涌出来。我拼命的跑,不停地跑。就当我以为安全了,可以休息了,我却发现我给警察包围了。我只好乖乖投降。

我意图大劫银行罪名成立,被判入狱。虽然你不时会来看我,我发觉你一次比一次消瘦。我知道你病情渐渐恶化但是我却不能为你做什么。直到一次你来看我时,我们一如往常的聊天。聊到一半,我看见你流鼻血。老婆,你在流鼻血。你伸手掉鼻血,向我望了一眼,然后身子往后倒。来人阿,我老婆昏倒了。快送她去医院。过了几天,警卫那了一封信给我。我看了信的内容。你已经永远离开我了。我只记得你对我说:你给我最好的礼物就是你的笑容。

我希望我的微笑减少你所感到的痛。让你不再终日以泪洗脸。我恨我的无能,不能把一切的痛苦赶走。我恨我的无助,不能再为你做出任何东西。更可恨的是我当时的行为,做出了不可挽回的错误。在最后,我只想说: 我爱你。

Saturday, August 22, 2009

A Horrendous Breakfast

It began with a piano class at 10.45 am. Class ended at 11.15am. My parents went to China at 6.30am. So no one at home, no food at home. And summore I'm outside already so eat outside. I decided to visit the DU Cafe Wan Tan Mee shop again for old times sake. This is the second time I went back to that stall. As I sat there looking at them prepare the mee, I was so "swt".

First of all, the mee did not go thru the hot-cold-hot process which makes the mee crunchy or something. Then hor, after taking the mee out of the boiling water, they barely mixed it and then they cut the mee. THEY CUT THE MEE. I was like OMGWTFBBQ there. If they cut the mee then how was I suppose to finish the mee in a vacuum cleaner fashion!!! So that ends the seeing the process part.

Then the guy who was delivering the mee sent the mee to the wrong table. I was like OMG. What a big blunder. Guess they just wasn't interested to remember how a customer dresses up or looked like. But nonetheless, the mee reached my table. And the tasting begins. Oh did I say they didn't mix the mee with the colouring+flavoring? The mee was like part yellow part black. And the taste was like part got more taste part no taste. And then the char siew. Man, if they can't make char siew they should have just bought from the Char Siew rice shop next to them la. Their char siew I also dunno whether it qualifies as char siew or not.

Before eating I was at +7 morale. After eating I went to -10 morale. An overwhelming sense of dissatisataction. That's it. Enough is enough. No more wan tan mee from that old lady who looks like her husband just died. Her face ar....really ar....like all her relatives die in the same day like that. Cannot see one la. Her mouth hor....like n like that one lor. Haihs....really sad case la. It used to be good. But now.......haihs....one can only think of the glorious past and weep for the unsightly present.

ARGH!!!! WTF!!!!!! SAY NO TO WAN TAN MEE FROM DU CAFE!!!!!!

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Thursday, August 13, 2009

A Chun Feng is Forever

1. What do you say to yourself every morning?
You'll Look a Little Lovelier Each Day with Fabulous Pink Chun Feng.

2. What do you want other people to say about you?
Go To Work On A chun Feng

3. Someone asked you out, your answer is...
Happiness is a Cigar Called Chun Feng

4. -skip-

5. How would you introduce yourself to someone you really like?
If Only Everything in Life was as Reliable as a Chun Feng

6. To someone you dislike?
The Best Part of Waking Up is Chun Feng in Your Cup

7. You're in a conversation and you suddenly feel the need to pee, how would you excuse yourself?
Don't Get Mad, Get Chun Feng

8. Your parents ask you why you got home late, you say...
Only The CRumbliest Flakiest Chun Feng

9. You're failing a subject, you say...
Bridge That Gap with Chun Feng

10. The love of your life asks you to marry him/her, what do you say?
Let's Face The Music and Chun Feng

11. Your bf/gf is breaking up with you, you tell him/her...
Chun Feng. It's Everywhere You Wanna Be.

12. -skip-

13. What are the best words to describe you?
Your Chun Feng, Right Away

14. If you're going to have a movie about your life, the title is...
Look For The Chun Feng Label

15. Your last words before you die...
Mild Green Chun Feng Liquid

16. Your message to a special someone..
Feel the Chun Feng

17. Title of this post will be...
A Chun Feng is Forever

Monday, August 10, 2009

Singapore Trip!!!

So as you all know, I didn't went for the gathering at Ai Li's place. That was because I went to singapore with my childhood friend. We've known each other since we're like 7 years old. Yup. It has been a long time.

The purpose of the trip was that he(of course it's a he. Sharon don't simply think) wanted to get his new phone - Samsung Omnia 2 s8000 Jet?(weird and long name). Well, of course to visit some of his relative as well. But the Samsung phone is the primary reason.

So I was at his place on Friday night. We were supposed to depart at 10am. But due to some unforeseen circumstances, namely delay by some people working in a bank, the departure was delayed till 11.45am. We headed southwards toward lunch in Seremban. Lunch includes - 清蒸八丁鱼, 芥兰炒虾球, 芙蓉煎蛋, 梅菜扣肉, and 炸猪手. And followed by a long drive southwards. A long and boring drive all the way till JB.

Reach JB at about 5pm. Maybe a bit later than 5pm. Checked in at the Crystal Crown Hotel. It's parking has it's own lift and the lift to the hotel rooms is at another place. So it was super inconvenient. Rested awhile and then headed towards Singapore. Custom check was super boring as well. And the roads were spinny. Spin spin around and spin summore before reach Singapore's custom. Had dinner at Geylang Rd. Dinner forgot eat what d. But can see lion dancers or dragon dancers parading the streets. 9th August is the Merdeka Day for SG.

After dinner was a short drive to his relative's house. No. 33 Jalan Tanjung was the address. We sat there, chatted and had coffee and watched the TV reporting news about hurricane/typhoon in Taiwan. That channel super pro. One news on hurricane/typhoon can report for 1 whole hour. They talked about the same thing over and over and over again. Flood here, flood there, flood somemore, and more flooding. One whole hour. I was like "Swt, they not sien I also sien". So yeah. After that, went back to JB. Cross the customs again. Spin spin again. Reach hotel. And I read the book "Where Rainbows End". Finished it at 3.19am. It was a touching story. And then sleep(on the floor again due to my bad habit).

Next day at 8 something am wake up for breakfast. Breakfast in the Chatter Corner Cafe within Crsytal Crown(notice the fascination with "C"). Buffet style. Got nasi goreng kampung, roti canai, mee goreng mamak, porridge, eggs, breads, hotdog, and whatever standard breakfast related stuff. I was quite zombie like due to not very sufficient sleep. After breakfast, went to Sentosa Island to play play(yes, that means crossing the custom again, the spinny roads again). Saw the Merlion sculpture?? statue?? It's a weird combination as a sea creature and a land creature gets combined into one. Definitely don't understand what they were thinking when they chose that. So ya. Walked around here and there and took some photo's. Visited Fort Siloso, the fort with the cannons pointing the wrong way during World War 2. Saw some memorablia and some passage that reminded me of Sejarah(MPAJA, Force 136). And had lunch in 九龙 restaurant or something like that. I ordered a 肉骨茶. And to my surprise I get 肉, 骨, and 茶only. 3 pieces of meat stuck on 3 bones and a claypot of soup. Nothing more, nothing less. And for a price of $6.50. For that much money, I can get like 2 servings of 肉骨茶 with better "everything" than that. And they messed up the order cos the cashier was like keep taking orders while the production can't keep up. So I had to wait for erm.....dunno how long before I get my crappy food(Really geram). And thus ends my visit to Singapore.

A long long journey back to Malaysia. Stopped in Melaka for dinner at 万里香satay celup. Fantabulous dinner. Eat till syok syok. Never knew it was that nice. And so a drop off here, a drop off there, reached my friend's place at somewhere close to 11pm.

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Tuesday, August 4, 2009

I Guess It's An Epic Fail

It begins with me waking up because of stupid mosquito biting me continuosly. So I woke up in a bad mood cos haven't sleep enough. But wake up d cannot sleep back. So I went to press computer for a while. It doesn't help. So I ate something. It doesn't help either. Playing PS3 makes me more frustrated cos I keep dying in the game. So without anything nice to do at home, I decided to drive around.

I get to experience what Eric and Tucker would have to go through. After doing some GoogleMap, I more or less know the way to "Eric"'s and "Tucker"'s house. Just to be safe, I brought along an atlas of KL and Klang Valley with me.

Time of departure: 1515
I set off from my house to "Eric" house. I didn't get lost, just missed one turning and took some time to find the road since it wasn't in the atlas. It was suppose to be a surpirse but then............... The address I received was No. 5 but there was like T5, S5 and other 5s around. So I had to make a call to confirm which No. 5 it was. So suprised failed. But on the good side, I managed to reach that place. I dropped off my package and left for my second destination. But when I reached home I realized that the address I received was s-5. EPIC FAIL.

Time of departure: 1607
I'm headed towards "Tucker"'s house. I took the DUKE thingy, paid RM2 and saved 15mins. Guess that DUKE is worth it after all. Skipped the jam and shortened the distance. It was shmooth shailing all the way except I made a wrong turn. So I arrived there not sure what I should do. I sent a message to "suprise" the target but to my "surprise", the target wasn't even at home. EPIC FAIL. So I had to drop the package and leave. I approached the main gate carefully. I reached for the lettertube(erm...its a roundish tube so i guess it should not be called a letterbox) and hesitated for a moment. Then I threw the letter into the house compound and make a run for it.(I guess it makes me look extremely suspicious). But then when the target reach home, I was told that no one even noticed that I was there.(SWT)

Time of arrival: 1807
Arrived home safely and in one piece. Was caught in some jam on the way home and refueled my car. I though someone would be at home but the home is empty again. I guess its another home alone night.

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It Goes Something Like This....

At first it was like this -> If You're Not The One (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z5td-avxzIY&feature=fvw)
Then something like this happens -> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qBGwa5t27zs (1:53 that part)
So I feel like ->痛哭的人 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QAWLRCm043A)

She used to be this -> 你是我最深爱的人(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bKvdB4D_gIw)
So I'm like this -> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eUl8m4lk2CE (安静)
And I feel like this -> 寂寞的男人 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RSjTaWeO8Mg)
But I know this -> 有多少愛可以重來 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fXcC6xOv1Rw)

Somehow I think I will be like this -> 九百九十九朵玫瑰(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JY_wqLD9r90)
Hopefully she know that I'm like this -> 妳知道我在等妳嗎 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1cWCzx0TYuw)
Because of this -> 特別的愛給特別的妳 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pE1_S-Q142Y)

But that is not what is going to happen because of this -> 我總於失去了妳 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xeme1eFETIc)
So I will have to be like this -> 我會好好過 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rzgyGkdA0wY)
And can only do this -> 守候 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PYBehHkOJpw)

P.S. - Ignore the video if it does not suit you....the important thing is the lyrics(mainly chorus part) or the title of the song.

Monday, August 3, 2009

I Can't Believe I Did That

Facebook quiz....lots of them....

Examples -> Future Career, Tropical Fruit, Real Major(this is the one i like most) and others...

The Real Major is the best one.....I get something like this "You are fascinated by finance and how money works so you can comprehend the true meaning of the universe".
This would roughly translate to using money to buy telescope for star-gazing. (My interpretation)

Erm....dunno what else to write.....my piano practice is going smoothly....a few more days and i'll complete the piece i'm practicing....http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=08RYp-uDpPo so that you can have a glimpse of how it will sound like.

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Saturday, August 1, 2009

Sometimes I Feel Like This....

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

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