What I Want For New Year

I do not ask for any physical possession. I think I have as much one could as for. And if I wanted any more, it would be delivered to me somehow. That is why I don't think much of physical possessions.

Christmas has not been a very happy day for me. The only thing that can get on my nerves is my family. Although family should be a source of comfort, a place where you can find joy, what I get is a lot of comparison, that kind of look where it says "You are not good enough!", and also the always judgemental look.

It's not easy being the youngest. I have 3 brothers who are godlike. And because of that my parents wants me to be like them. I don't want to be like them. I just wanted to be myself

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Everytime my brother (this is a specific brother) does something weird, my parents would always find some excuse to explain why he does that. But when it comes to me, the first thing that they would think of is there must be something wrong with me. Or something is wrong with me. No matter what I do, I can never seem to get any approval from them. Every single thing I do they always have to be critical about it. Even when it was the best decision for me.

Why can't they accept me for who I am? Why do they always have to be so judgemental on me? Why can't they let me be who I want to be? Is it really that I have to be like my brother for me to gain some approval from them?

This is what i really want for new year. I wish that my parents aren't so judgemental about me and would really accept me for who I am. I wish they would stop comparing me to my brother and stop pushing me down. I wish that would stop giving the kind of look which say "You are not good enough!".